When I Found You , You Saved Me

Chapter 34

Florida is extremely fun and is the first day back on tour also our last week because summer is almost over. It's the end of august heading into September and of course school. Tonight is the show, I cannot wait to see my friends Christi, Jen, and Mayan. We're definitely hitting the beaches together.

As of right now we're headed to the venue. Since in Atlanta we gave out lots of backstage passes, they have to buy VIP tickets which I'm hoping they do. I'm so excited I can't keep still!

Practice was extremely awkward for me. I wasn't focused, I could barely look at Chres, my mind was on Jay, just so much except what it's supposed to be on! My heart and head is pounding right now I just feel terrible.

"Is that my new favorite friend?" I heard Jens voice from behind me.

"Ahhh Jen! Am I glad to see you where's Christi and Mayan?"

"They're out there talking to Jazmyn. She told me you weren't focused so I came to check on my girl wassup? You wanna go shopping?"

"Oh Boy do I! But that's not it, I'm having guy issues."

"Mmm,you wanna talk about?"

"I really can't because one of the guy is actually here in the other room."

"Gotchu well the best advice I can give you if you want it is that before you can accept anyone of them in your life you need to accept yourself. Find who you really are give yourself attention and love then when your mind is at peace don't chose anything the choice should be so clear it'll fall in place it self."

"Can you live with me forever?" She laughed and we hugged.

"This life would be extremely fun for me but I do have my own dreams to live up."

"Ha, thank you Jen this is why I love you!!"

"I know"

After that advice I just forgot about the both of them and focused on my self for once. I felt the performance in my soul instead of just choreography, I hung with my friends not thinking once of kisses or boyfriends, it was like my mind was free, just so Free for once. And honestly I love it. Jen is an incredible friend!

We spent the entire night with the three of them until it was time to head back on the road. I really like Florida its so comfortable with them and a chill vibe. We have to come out here more often.

Everyday I barely talk to Chres never a call or a text to Jay. As of right now though, I'm going to have a conversation with Chres about this he deserves to know something.

"Chres can I talk to you?"

"Yeah wassup?" I entered the room him and Ray shared but he was alone this time.

"I know it seems like I have been avoiding you but its not like that. See, I have been losing my mind lately and I just need to find myself at this point in life. My career is kicking off and I don't think a relationship is healthy right now if I can't out my all into it."

"I totally understand that's why I haven't bothered you. At least we're on the same page right?"

"Yes! I'm so glad we are. It makes it so much easier and its a load off my chest."

"If you need me I'm right here."

"Same for you!"

"Can we just chill together one last time tonight before we you know 'find ourselves'"

"You got it!"

That night we just ate snacks, watched movies, and chilled.