I am not EVIL, I just lost control

Chapter 29

I got ready for bed. I wore shorts and a tank. I lay under the comforter.

Sigh. Today was crazy. Sleep came fast because I was so tired physically and mentally.

His rough hand moved from my cheek to my neck to the side of my body pulling me hard to his body. I tried to push him away but it was useless. His fingers slips inside the waistband of my jeans. He push my jeans to my knees.

I was shaking, my heart beating wildly. I was trying to scream but no voice came out.

No. No. No. Tears is trailing down my cheeks and dripping from my chin.

His hand was moving up and down my now exposed thigh. I felt my stomach clench. I tried screaming again but nothing happened.

I was hitting him and pushing him but nothing worked. His head came closer until his lips made contact with the skin of my neck.

I felt his sickly hot wet breath on my neck. His mouth moved down my neck heading to my breast and his hand moved to my inner thigh getting dangerously close to MY privets. OH GOD. OH GOD. I need help.

Fight god dammit. I pushed hard and screamed my lungs out.

"Noooooooo" I sat up my breath and heart were wild. My hair striking to my face with tears running down my face. I was sitting shaking in bed until I saw him staring at me. I screamed again jumping back until I hit my back to the headboard

"Sarah, shhhh. It's ok. It's just me" Malik said he tried to touch my face but I shrunk back

He sighed and sat on the edge of the bed. The bed was big so we were far away from each other.

"They are dead. Don't let them control you. You CAN control it" he said opening his arms wide.

I took a deep breath and wiped my tears with the back of my hand. I Crawl to his arms and sat on his lab and rested my head on his shoulder.

"You won" he told me stroking my hair

"I won" I whispered. I let his heart beat calm me down and loll me to sleep.

I was half asleep when I felt him lay me down and snuggle behind me.

I opened one eye. It's still dark. I tried to move my hair from my eyes but something moved behind me and I stiffened. Then I smelled him and smiled remembered what happen last night. No, what happen early tonight.

I need to go to the bathroom. I tried to move away slowly.

Malik steered in his sleep and his hand tightened around my waist pulling me closer.

I poked him with my elbow "If you press any more on my bladder I'll pee myself" I hissed

He chuckled sleepily and released me "Don't keep me waiting" he said amused

When I came back he was lying on his back his arms behind his head. He was sleeping.

I tipped toe to the bed and went under the comforter slowly.

I'm just gonna tease him. I told myself with evil smile.

I straddle his hips and he wrapped his arms around me and I put my hounds on his sides and started to tickle him.

He laughed and tried to push me away but I held my ground tickling him harder.

"P..Please. S... Stop" he Gasped still laughing. "I surrender"

"Ok" I said and I laid my head on his chest still on top of him. My smaller body felt tinny compared to him. "Your evil" he said in amused voice.

He felt me stiffen because he put a finger under my chin and made me look at him. "I'm sorry I didn't mean it this way" he said in a soft voice

"Everybody struggle with their bad side once in a while to do the right thing, you just struggle more. You're not evil because you didn't want to be like this, you feel guilty"

"I really wish these powers go away taking this stupid evil instinct with them" I whispered still lost in his endless black eyes "I don't want to be demon"

"But if you were not a demon, I wouldn't have met you" he said bending his head a stealing a fast kiss. Then he smiled softly.

I stretched up so I can kiss his chin.

"You need to smile more" I said resting my head on his chest and he put his hands around my waist.

Our breathing slowed down. I sighed in content closing my eyes.

"I like this" I said

"Me too"

"Malik, why did you come to my room?" I asked

"I felt you. You needed me. You called me. Well, your animal part called me" he said

"Could you stay" I said in a small voice hating that I needed somebody

"I am here for you. And don't feel shame to ask me anything" he said

I nuzzled his neck inhaling deeply. "I can get use to this. And if I got use to this you're stuck with me" I said trailing kisses along his jaw line until reaching his earlobe I nibbled at it. I felt him shiver.

I smiled at the effect and bit harder.

"Princess, if you continue what you're doing we are not going to sleep" he whispered his hands moving up and down my back.

I sighed and crawled from the top of him and lay next to him. He wrapped his arms around me and I closed my eyes.