I am not EVIL, I just lost control

Chapter 35

I was confused "I didn't loss anything" I said

"Your all animal instinct no humanity" he said "No emotions"

"Humanity is a weakness. Emotions are weakness" I said

"No, emotions are not a weakens" he said sternly

"You're losing your humanity, your soul, you don't even feel"

"Feelings are weakness" I said. But I didn't want to say that. I want to feel.

"Feeling is not weakness. I feel" he yelled which irritated me

"I feel. I love you" He whispered cupping my cheeks with both hands

I fought harder against my cage. I want to love too.

"Don't leave me" a single tear rolled down his cheek.

And I felt something. It started at my heart and I fought harder holding for this feeling for dear life.

I need my humanity back.

"Please Sarah, come back to me" he begged "I can't loss you"

He kissed me, just a brush of touch. And the feeling got stronger and stronger.

"I ..I ..." I don't know what to do, say or feel.

"Sarah, fight it back. If you don't they will kill you" his voice cracked at the last word "It will kill me" he said another tear rolled down his cheek.

Fight. Fight harder. I was shaking from all the mental struggle.

And then it all snap. My humanity back and this feeling was love.

I stared at Malik with my normal eyes "I did it" I panted "I love you" and he crushed me in a bone crushing hug "I thought I lost you" he murmured in my ear

The smell hit me first, blood and death. Then the scene of all the bodies. What have I done?

I barely had time to turn away before I throw up. Malik was rubbing my back. I gagged one more time before swaying from all the execution and stress.

Now all the feeling I couldn't feel came to me all at once. I gasped for air.

I killed a kid. Drowned a guy. Made 2 guys shoot themselves. Excused the third. Chocked another and electrocuted the last. And I liked it.

What did I do? I sobbed remembering all their pain and fear.

Malik hugged me and carried me bridal style. And I held his T-shirt for dear life as I sobbed. He carried me outside and we sat on the cement floor. It was night time.

"You are not a monster. You are not evil. You came back for me" he said lifting my chin

"I liked it" I said in a shaky voice as another sob shook me.

"No, your animal side made you feel like that. A side THEY woke" he said sternly

"I do love you. I didn't just say that" he said softly

I lift my hand to brush his cheek loving the roughness of his sable I liked the calmness this touch brought to me

"I love you,too" I whispered "You were never afraid from me" even when the king and dad were scared.

"I know you're not evil" there was so much honesty in his voice. I snuggled deeper in his arms and chest

"I'm tiered" I murmured closing my eyes

"All that power and struggle can kill a demon and you're sleepy" he chuckled

"Sleep my love. I will take care of you"

Malik POV

She slept in my arms like a baby. I tried holding her closer as the car speed up. She looked so small, so breakable. She scared me there, I thought I lost her forever. But she came back, she came back for me. I smiled at that.

I had to go back to that damn place to call her dad. And he had to deal with the military, we had to go for meeting with them tomorrow but I won't disrupt her until then. She went through a lot.

We arrive at the mansion to the protesters outside the gates still yelling.

In the drive though there was the military and the FBI cars. The military didn't want the FBI to get involved but we told them.

They didn't want their secret known by the FBI but even Sarah's secret would be known by the military and the FBI.

I walked to the main entrance still holding Sarah. The shouting in the main large sitting room was so loud that I was worried it would wake Sarah.

When they notice us the room went quiet, everybody staring at us.

I looked at her dad and he nodded. I walked up the stairs with long strides.

I tucked her in bed still fully clothed with the evidence of the fight still stuck to her. Rest now clean later. I kissed her forehead "sleep, my love" and walked out.

"If anything happen, anything at all came get me" I told chase and Jack who stood guards at her door.

I walked inside the main sitting aria and everyone is standing watching me.

I walked to the dining room, not the one we use daily but a bigger one that fit 20 people.

"Fallow me" I said

I sat at the head of the table with her dad, Sami at my right.

"This is only my statement of what happened to us today" I looked around there is about 12 people.

"I want less people here. All superiors we will meet you tomorrow. Only the one taking my statement should stay"

Only two FBI and two military staid writing everything from the moment we heard the news about the bombs and the fire until we came home skipping the part I passed out until waking up with the two 18 year old dead. I didn't tell them that I actually woke up shortly before Mikes after Mike's death.

I told them about the bodies I saw afterward. But I didn't mention Sarah losing her humanity.

I didn't say anything about the Fire stone bars that I asked the demons to remove before calling the FBI, we don't need them using it against us

They were shock "The princess was the one to kill them?" One asked

"Yes" and some people walked in

The investigators from the crime scene demons, FBI and military.

They told us the identity of the men and how Mike drowned in the middle of the room. How it look that the 18 year olds shot themselves in the head. How the doctor was electrocuted to death.

Damn that girl did some damage.

"I'm going to bed" I said standing up. I looked at Sami I'm not sure if Sarah would like me to say anything about the humanity thing to him

I walked away.