I am not EVIL, I just lost control

Chapter 28

Malik sat down and just stared at me

I left my eyebrows in question

"How are you?" he asked, with his eyes looking like he is seeing my soul, reading me. I don't like this.

"Fine?" It came out as a question

"I know something changed since the kidnap" he stated

"Of course something changed I gained these freakin powers" I said irritated. Just drop it, I was pegging but I made sure he didn't see it in my eyes.

"Every time a Guy touches you even casually you flinch away" he said

"I am-" I started but he interrupted me

"Don't say you are fine" he yelled then took a deep breath when he saw me cringe

"I know you can't talk to your friends since the change and your relation with your father never been close" he continued in a softer voice "I am here. You need to talk to someone"

I looked at his eyes to see the sincerity. I broke once in front of him Why not again. I felt a wobbly smile form on my lips at the memory.

But the smile droped at another memory "They tried to rape me. They touched me. I felt violated" I whispered looking down my voice broke and my eyes were stinging with tears.

"And how are you now? Really" he said. He's eyes didn't held judgment or pity just Compassion.

"I have flashbacks when someone touches me. I have nightmare where I loss and they did rap-" My voice cracked. I felt my throat tight with a sob.

He wanted to come near me but he held himself back. I was grateful.

"You know I'm not really the man you first met. I have to keep the 'looks' being a prince and all" he said. I know how you feel.

"It was like a second nature to me but with you, I don't want to act like the prince" he looked down

I calmed down and looked back at him. He stood up and walked around the disk to me. Too close. I stood up and took a step back.

He stopped "You can't let them have this effect on you even after their death" he said. He took a step toward me and I held my ground. He walked slowly until he was in front of me.

He left his hand to my cheek. I flinched back. I couldn't stop "please" I whispered

He took my hand and put it over his. I felt small because of the size different.

"You control this. Pull my hand away when it's too much. But you need to get over your fear" he said softly and I nodded.

He left his hand with my hand holding his wrist. His fingertips touched my cheek. I felt the flashback and I tightened my hold on his hand but I didn't pull away. We just stood there like this until my breath went back to normal.

His fingers touched more of my cheek not just the fingertips until he was cupping my cheek. I found myself closing my eyes and leaning to his warm hand. He put my other hand to his chest and my eyes flow open.

"Push me away if you didn't want to continue" he said in a husky whisper.

He leaned his head to me until his face was hovering to the side of my neck he inhaled deeply and I did the same. I liked the smell it was musky with a hint of after shave.

His cheek pressed to mine before he pressed a soft kiss to the crock of my neck. I liked the rougher skin against my softer one. I found myself leaning close till our bodies touched. My red eyes turned completely red as my instinct intensify with need. I moaned and his moan followed mine.

He pulled back from my neck to rest his forehead against mine. He stared at my eyes with his red one too. I saw lust. We were both breathing heavily. His breath tickled my face.

"As much as I don't want to stop but we were moving too fast" he said huskily

"Ok "I said breathless but I didn't pull away

"I don't know about marriage but I really really like you and I know you're not some guy. I feel different with you. It feels right. I never liked guys to be too close but not you" I said "I want more with you"

He was shocked then his eyes soften and he smiled. This smile makes me melt.

He took a deep breath "I know I like you Too. I didn't expect the same from you" he said "I want more with you too" he smiled then kissed my lips. It was soft and sweet and ended too soon.

"I will see you later, my princess" he said then turned and walked outside the room with one last glance and a smile.

My knees are turning to jelly. Do I love him? My instinct was just telling me 'Mate'. aahhh, can it be more primal than this, I just thought of him as a freaking MATE.

Yeah, Someone to love and beloved by. only him and no one else. aparently my instict only seeing him and no one else. But does my humen in me love him?