Struggles (Book One)

I'm Sorry B.A.P.

Yongguk’s POV:

It’s been one week. Seven very long days that I haven’t heard my lovers voice, that I haven’t seen him move, that I haven’t seen him smile, that I haven’t slept, that he hasn’t woke up, that I haven’t left this room, and that I’ve been sitting here holding his hand and crying my eyes out. I didn’t know it was possible for somebody, especially me, to cry this long. I just wanted him to show some sign, any, of being here with me. The doctor told me he was in a coma and they didn’t know how long it was going to be until he woke up. They said he should wake up though that he wouldn’t die, but that seemed like a lie with how long it was taking him to recover.

“How is he?” Deonne asked as she walked into the room.

“Same.” My voice was probably deeper than usual. I couldn’t sleep much and with the sleep I did get were only nightmares of my poor Zelo. “Why won’t he wake up?!” I growled as tears began to build in my eyes. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see Deonne crying too.

“I am so sorry.” Deonne blamed all of what happened on her.

“I know.”

“Bang… I have to tell you something.” She said quietly.

“What is it?” She took a deep breath and started to cry more.

“I’m leaving B.A.P.” I would have been mad at her because she was going to leave Daehyun, but all my worries were on Zelo.

“If that is what you think is better.” She nodded.

“I don’t want them to hurt any longer. I wanted to be here for both Daehyun and Zelo, but… now that I’ve had time to think… I can’t… I just can’t…” I was going to tell her that this wasn’t her fault, when Zelo groaned. I widen my eyes and stared at him waiting for something to happen. Soon both his beautiful eyes opened and slowly looked at me.

“Gukkie…?” My heart skipped a beat.

“Junhong!” I hugged him tightly. I couldn’t believe he was awake. “Finally! You are awake!” He groaned again.

“Gukkie… you are hurting me…” I pulled back and apologized. He gave me a small smile and then turned his gaze to Deonne. “Sissy…?” I looked over at Deonne. She gasped and began to cry harder. She turned around and ran from the room. “Deonne! Please don’t go! Come back!” Zelo tried to get out of bed, but I pushed him back down. I held him close and tried to calm him down.

“She will be back, Z don’t worry.” I knew I had lied to him, but it was the only way to get him to relax. He is going to be devastated when he realizes that she won’t be coming back. What am I going to do?

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Daehyun’s POV:

The hospital released me after a week. I was happy to finally get out of this stupid bed. Deonne was with me the whole time, except for now because she went to go check on her brother. The doctor placed me into a wheel chair so I could go see Zelo for myself. As I wheeled myself into the room, I noticed that Deonne wasn’t in the room and that Zelo was awake.

“Zelo! You are awake. How do you feel man?” Zelo looked over at me giving me a sad smile.

“I am in so much pain. It hurts a lot.” I nodded, knowing how he felt.

“I will go get the doctor.” Yongguk said and gave Zelo a peck on the lips, before leaving the room. I wheeled myself closer to him.

“Daehyun, how can you be so happy right now?” I shrugged.

“Because I finally get to go home and spend some alone time with Deonne.” Zelo frowned and looked down at his hands. “What’s wrong Zelo?” He started to cry and wouldn’t look at me. “Junhong?”

“Deonne… left B.A.P. Daehyun.” I heard Yongguk’s voice behind me. My heart stopped. She left me, without even giving me a chance to keep her here.

“What?!” Tears began to fill my eyes. “Where is she?! Why didn’t you stop her?! Why didn’t you tell me?!” I was freaking out and all I wanted to do was to find her and hold her close to me.

“She said she didn’t want to hurt us anymore and I was too worried about Zelo to say anything. Once Zelo called her ‘sissy’, she fled from the room and left.” I turned around and wheeled myself to the waiting room where Youngjae was waiting.

“Take me home now.” I growled. He didn’t hesitate one bit.

“I am sorry.” Youngjae didn’t say anything after that; he just wheeled me out to the car and helped me in. We drove in silence. Once we were at the dorms, Youngjae helped me into the building. I practically kicked the door down.

“Daehyun! I see they let you leave the hospital.” Jongup came up to me and was about to hug me, but I pushed him away.

“Where is Deonne?” His smile dropped and he looked away.

“She… she’s already gone Dae. I’m so sorry.” I grew angry towards my friends.

“Why didn’t you guys stop her?!” I fell to my knees and cried. Youngjae and Jongup helped me to my room. I caught a glimpse of Himchan’s sad look on the way there. They laid me down and left the room to let me be by myself.

I laid there for hours crying. Himchan came in a few times to see if I was hungry, but I just shook my head no every time. I couldn’t eat with a broken heart. How could she have done this to me?

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Hey guys! Sorry that this chapter is so sad and short. Deonne left B.A.P. What is going to happen next? Find out soon! Vote Comment Fan! <3