Faking It (OHSHC)

Jungle pool secrets

      I wasn't ever going to be good enough to them, Ash had lied to me. Walking down the stairs I looked at them sitting at the table, eating like I hadn't existed. This was how it always was. Walking into the dinning room, I always tried this, why wasn't I enough? Why did I still care about what they thought of me? I already knew that it would never change. The table in this house would always and only ever be set for two.

      Smiling, I walked out of the classroom only to be attacked by Hani and Mori. What was going on now? They carried me to a limo and tossed me inside. Did they hate me too? Had they found out who I was? Did they find out about Ash? Terror washed through me at the thought of not being able to fulfill Ash's wish. I hadn't realized that we were already at our destination.

      "Ash-Chan~, come on let's swim!" Hani let out a short laugh and tugged me to the pool.

      "Sorry Hani, I don't really want to swim right now." I apologized actually seeming to care about what he thought.

      "Okay then. Takashi come on." Hani got onto Mori's back and swam against the current.

       After a while the twins and Tamaki were playing with water guns. Not realizing where they were going, Tamaki tripped on a banana peel. Idiot. He started rolling, pushing me into the pool with Hani; the chlorine stung my cuts, it felt so good. Tamaki stopped rolling after bumping into a totem poll. The pool started making noises, I swam over to Hani, a giant wave towering above us.

      "Take a breathe and hold it." I told Hani as I curled my arms around his small body, letting the wave wash us away.

       I could feel my bandages around my chest loosen, and my shirt come up as we were washed ashore. Letting go of Hani, I coughed up the water that had entered my lungs. I looked up to see if he was okay. That moment, I regretted saving him. The look on his face as our eyes met brought back old memories. So many old memories. I watched his eyes scan from my arms, to my chest, to my stomach where the shirt had come up slightly.

       "Ash-chan?" I could see the tears well up in his eyes. Betrayal, disgust, and hurt flickered across his face as he reached for me. Placing on a smiling face I stood up.

      "Is there something wrong Hani?" I smiled sweetly, don't ask.

      "Take off your shirt." He said demanding. Please don't ask.

      "Why?" Remember to smile. He looked at me and yanked my sleeve up.

      "Ash what is this?"

      "I don't know what you're talking about." Keep smiling even if he touches you.

      "Ash look at me." He yanked my face to look at his, I kept my smiling face, no one can ever know.

      "Yes Hani?"

      "Ash, what is this?"

      "Hani, it's nothing."

      "Ash, the scars... Did you do that?"

      "Hani, I don't know what you're talking about."

      "And you're a girl. Ash, what is going on. Talk to me." Stop asking or my smile will fall.

      " Are you okay Hani? Were you hurt at all from the swim?"

      "ASH! Tell me, what the HELL happened?!?" It fell.

       "Mitsukuni, drop it." I swear, hell would have frozen over with the cold look in my eyes.

      "No, I won't drop it, I'm here, your friend, tell me what happened." Wish 50% fulfilled.

     "Are we friends?" I asked, trying to pull my arm from his grip.

     "Of course. Now tell me what happened." He pulled me down to sit next to him as we looked at the current pool.

      "I stopped, you know. I don't do it anymore. It just got really hard to deal with at the time." Lies...

      "What happened?"

       "My family died in a fire, and no one else wanted me...I did the only thing I thought I could at the time. I was only 12 then. I've been clean for a year now, so there's nothing to worry about." I only wish that they would die in a fire...

      "I'm so sorry...but what about the girl thing?" Hani blushed slightly looking away.

      "Oh that, my parents always wanted me to go to Ouran, but the only scholarship open was for a boy, so here I am." I laughed softly hoping that I could really convince him. He hugged me as he cried into my side.

      "Just please Ash, that was so scary, don't ever hurt yourself again, okay?"

      "Okay Hani, I promise, but don't tell anyone, I can't stand them thinking about me like that." Hani nodded to me smiling and standing up, placing a hand out for me to take.

 Sorry, but promises are meant to be broken.