Depression Doesn't Mean Self Harm.

I prefer turkey.

Today was Saturday, noooo and the reason why I'm not looking forward for today is because, Rachel's friend Anthony is turning 18 and he's having a small party more or less a couple of close friends and he's invited me, unfortunately.

So I'm currently in Rachel's room looking for something nice to wear, Tom isn't coming because he's feeling a bit under the weather.

"This top would look great with those jeans" I told Rachel. She was making a big deal out of nothing, I've asked her so many times if she liked Anthony and she kept giving me the same answer 'we don't see each other that way'.

"Yeah I guess I could wear those" she said "What shoes will I wear with them, I'm definitely not wearing heels" "Wear your white and gray superstars", she smiled at my response and started getting dressed in front of me.

I wasn't uncomfortable or weirded out, it felt normal because she is technically my sister now, I guess. It's not like I'm seeing her butt naked or anything.

I was wearing ripped jeans with a shoulder top matching with my black air max. I felt very self conscious because this was my first like party and I didn't know what to expect.

"Okay should I do my make up first or yours" Rachel asked me "Do yours first".

After about ten minutes of doing each others make up and taking selfies we were ready to go.

Anthony lived a bit far around a twenty minute drive and since both Rachel and I were too young to drive Anita volunteered to drop us and collect us. The party started at ten and finished any time before 3 A.M . Unfortunately for Rachel, Anita was going to collect us at one in the morning.

"You guys look so nice" Anita told us "Thanks mom" "Thanks Anita".
"Are you guys ready to go" Anita asked "Yeah" Rachel and I both said at the same time.

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Anita had dropped us at Anthony's house and we were both standing in front of his garden. "Are you okay Rachel" I asked her, I could literally tell she was hyperventilating beside me.

"No, Sophia, I'm freaking scared" she told me gripping onto my arm "I really like Anthony and I'm worried to walk into his house and see him smacking his lips against a bimbo".

I laughed at what she said, ha I knew she liked him "Look, Rachel I'm scared too, this is my first party so no matter what we got each other, right" I asked her "Of course".

We walked into the party and saw a few people making out into the hallway. Rachel started guiding me towards the living room where the music was playing, this party wasn't huge but at the same time I felt a little underdressed.

A lot of people were dancing or grinding with one another. "Wanna get a drink" Rachel asked I nodded my head and we went to the kitchen where there were a couple of people there.

"Hey guys" Anthony said "You thirsty". He handed us two cans of Pepsi. "Happy birthday" Rachel said giving Anthony a hug, he put his hands loosely around Rachel's waist "Thanks Rach" he said.

She handed him a present which he put on top of his fridge promising to open it when they were alone.

"Hey guys" a dude shouted in the kitchen "Wanna play spin the bottle. A loud yeahs and okays where heard and people started walking towards Anthony's basement.

I wasn't really scared about playing the game, because I have kissed a few guys before, I was just a bit worried about kissing someone in front of people.

"Ready to go" Rachel asked "Whenever you are" I smiled and we began walking towards the basement.

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