Depression Doesn't Mean Self Harm.

We only met!!

After group therapy and individual therapy was over, I texted John to come pick me up. I was standing in the car park until I saw Cole leave the building.

I offered him a tight smile because it felt like I'd been waiting for John for ages, he returned the smile and sat down on the ground leaning against the wall.

I decided to go over towards him and sit down beside him because I was also tired of standing up for a long period of time.

Once I approached him, I sat down next to him but made sure there was some distance between us incase John drove by at any second and told the rest that I'm 'engaging with a young gentleman' he said those exact words when he saw Rachel talking to a guy in front of the house.

"Hey" I said, looking at my entwined fingers sitting on my lap. "Hey" he replied looking at me.

I didn't say anything after that and was greeted with an awkward silence, he still had his eyes on me. "Why do you come to group therapy" he asked. I didn't know why exactly, like I was perfectly fine but deep down I knew that no matter what I told myself I was still ill.

"Well because, I can talk to someone about my problems and meet different people dealing with similar shit" I stated looking at a bird flying around "and you".

"Same as you, I guess but it puts me at ease" I looked at him clearly not understanding the last thing he said. "What" he asked "What do you mean puts you at ease, it's because you cut right" "Yeah I guys and when I come, the voice in my head telling me to grab a blade is, like vanishing and the only thing I can think about is....." he trailed off.

I didn't want to pry so I just nodded my head in understanding and looked back at my fingers. "Where you an orphan" he asked "Actually no, when I was in rehab I kept telling the nurses and the mysterious voice coming from the speakers, all the terrible stuff my parents had done to me, so I'm guessing they did some investigation and like that's when Anita and John came to the rescue" I told him.

"Anita and John?" I smiled at him "They're like my guardians now, they adopt children, so like I'm one of those children".

"Are there other children" he asked clearly interested about my life, which was pretty pathetic before but I try and think of the best in cases. "You have a lot of questions don't you and yeah there are, Rachel and Tom, they're really cool I guess".

He just nodded his head in response "What about you, what's your deal". We locked eyes before I turned to look forward "Well I have a dad, my mam, well I don't know where she is probably off with her hundredth husband travelling the world and I have five brothers, blood brothers".

Before I could respond my phone started ringing, it was Rachel "hey" I said "Sophia me and dad are on our way, like we are literally down the road" as if on cue a black BMW started making its way down the narrow road. I hung up on Rachel and stood up.

"There's my ride" I told Cole "I guess I'll see you on Thursday". He smiled and began to stand up. "Yeah see you" he said sighing.

I started making my way towards John's car and opened the back door since Rachel was sitting in the passenger seat "h-h hey" I greeted them, "Hey" John greeted back while Rachel smiled at me.

"So how was your first group therapy and private one" John asked. reversing his car. "It was okay I guess, I didn't say much" I replied whilst looking out the window. I don't think I can ever get used to living in this gorgeous city.

"Speaking of" Rachel began "Who was that cute guy you were talking to". My cheeks started to heat, OMG he's like 18. "He's name is Cole and he is in my group therapy" I said looking at Rachel as if talking to him was what I do regularly.

"Really, ooo how old is he" Rachel asked "Rachel" John warned sternly "What dad, I was just wondering" she said batting her eyelashes child like "He's 18" I told her "Oh shoot" Rachel cursed "Ah well you can have him".

"What, he's like two years older than me" I pointed out 'Actually one year, you're turning 17 in September, right" "Yeah i am but he could be turning 19 tomorrow for all I know" I told her, Rachel just laughed "Oh honey, age is just a number".

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I was sitting In my room texting Rachel, she was currently at football practice. She was telling me about a cute guy she saw today.

After Rachel had to go back to practice, I decided to watch Netflix. I wasn't really one to associate with everyone even with people I was fond of, I just liked staying to myself.

After watching two movies and a whole season of The big bang theory I decided to head downstairs. I walked past Tom's room and saw him staring out the window with the song "Say something' playing in his room. I decided to enter and talk to him.

"Hey Tom, are you okay" I asked "Yeah, Sophia I'm just sad" he replied looking at me "What's wrong". "My girlfriend broke up with me" he said. "Why, did you guys have a fight" I asked really curious and sad about what he was telling me. "Yeah, she said she couldn't handle my bipolar anymore, that she's been seeing someone else". I was so shocked at what he'd just told me, how dear that little bitch.

I put my hand on he's shoulder and squeezed it gently "If she breaks up with you, you know she's not the one, the one is that person who knows the difficulty your going through and is still willing to stay by your side". Tom started chuckling "What's so funny" I asked a bit happy that he was smiling again "Where did you hear a quote like that". I actually heard similar quotes to the one I just said, but I made this one from the top of my head.

"I guess feeling alone and empty for most of my life makes me try and think of words of encouragement, but it never really helps" I told him. Tom gave me a small smile "Well I'm just happy that your okay now" he told me sincerely.

"Hey guys, what's wrong" Rachel asked walking in and sitting at the other side of Tom. "Jorgia broke up with me" Tom informed her. Rachel gasped "That little snake, I knew she was a bitch" "Yeah I guess you were right, but I just couldn't see that in her".

Rachel frowned and put her arms around Tom. There was a click behind us and there standing was John and Anita, Anita had a Polaroid camera. She took the picture and stared at it a big smile on her face. She passed it to John and then he gave it to Tom.

Rachel and I bent in a bit to get a better look of the picture. I had my arm on Tom's shoulder while Rachel had her arm around Tom and Tom had his arms in front of me. It only showed the our backs but the picture made me cry a bit.

"That's a pretty cool picture" Tom said "Yeah it's actually really nice" Rachel put in "Yeah, and I wouldn't change anyone in for the world".

Hey my chocolate fudges, yes I'm going to call you guys that as a nickname, yes it's very creative, why thank you.

So now Sophia is getting used to her new family and she's going to learn more about them in time.

She's also met a very interesting guy, Cole, this book isn't particularly a romance novel, but my friends who've read the book were telling me to get more reads, love should be in the air 'wiggles eyebrows'.

Spoiler- Sophia has group therapy and individual therapy.

Love my chocolate fudges.