Band One Shots (Request)

Goodbye Jack (Jalex) *TRIGGER WARNING*

This oneshot has a huge trigger warning. It's a very sensitive topic I'm going to be writing about but as a writer I like to explore to dark side of things
Band - All Time Low
Pairing - Jalex (Jack x Alex)
Warning - Huge trigger warning, suicide

Alex POV

I sat in my apartment alone, weak, helpless. But that's how I feel most days. I've been feeling myself drifting this way for so long that now I feel like I can't control who I am anymore.

I sat on the end of my bed with beer in on hand and pills in the other. I held the container in my hand just looking at it. This is where it ends. This is what kills me.

My mind began to wonder would anyone actually miss me if I was gone? Would everyone call me weak? And say I took the easy way out? Ha, it's not like anyone cares what I think anyway.

I took a swig of the beer before throwing the contents into the floor. I took a deep breath in and out as I grabbed my phone. I didn't want them to read a note from me. I knew I needed to say my goodbyes even if it is on the phone.

First I called Rian.
"Hello?" Answered Rian
"Hey man....I'm going to be going away for a while" I started.
"What where?!"
"I've got a couple of personal problems going on and I need to go somewhere else" I continue to explain.
"Oh...will this place be better for you?"
"Yeah...yeah it will...so this is my way of saying goodbye" I tried so hard to ignore the lump in my throat trying to force the tears out.
"Ok...I wish you luck in this place" he spoke sadly.
"Goodbye Rian" I whispered before hanging up the phone.

I called Zack next
"Hey Alex!" I'm gonna miss that cheerful voice.
"Hey man...I'm going to be going away for a while" I explained.
"Oh...ok...will you be back?" He asked.
"I-I don't know"
"Well...however long you stay I wish you luck"
"Thank you Goodbye Zack" I hung up the phone.

This one was going to be the hardest saying goodbye to Jack...my best friend..the man I love. My fingers began to shake and I could feel myself hyperventilating as I dialled Jack's number.

"Hello?" Answered Jack
"Hey man"
"What's up?....Alex?" Whimpers escaped my mouth as I knew why I was on the phone.
"I-I-I'm going away I've got too many problems" I explained.
"What's wrong....Alex talk to me" I bit my lip as tears continued to fall.
"I keep going through all this shit...I-I-I feel weak and helpless and that no one is there for me I don't have someone to protect and look after me because right now Jack I don't have anyone" I explained.
"You have me Alex we can talk i'll come round and we will talk ok?"
"No Jack I'm going somewhere..."
"What do you mean you're going somewhere?"
"I'm going to a place....were I will be at peace and every problem in my life will be gone...ended and maybe...just maybe I won't be alone anymore because I know other people are waiting for me" I continued as I clutched the pills in my hand.

"What are you talking about?wait....Alex please don't tell me what I think you're about to do! Alex!"
"Goodbye Jack" I whispered.
"ALEX NO PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME ALEX I LOVE YOU PL-" he screamed and cried as I hung up the phone.

My hands began to shake as I kept hold of the pills in my hand. Tears continued to fall as I began thinking about my actions and what I'm about to do.

Jack POV

No this can't happen I can't have Alex leave me. I've noticed for a while that he hasn't been himself and me being so stupid I haven't done anything. This was my fault this was all my fault maybe if I did pay more attention to him I wouldn't have got this type of phone call from him.

I ran as fast as I could to Alex's apartment. My mind began to wonder what was going to happen and scared of what I was about to face when I arrived.

My heart began to beat faster and faster as I ran round the corner leading to Alex's apartment. "ALEX?! ALEX!" I began to shout thumping on the door.

No answer "oh shit" I muttered to myself and began slamming myself into the door trying to kick it down. It took about three goes until eventually I was able to open the door.

"ALEX!!" I ran to his bedroom opening the door.
Pills where scattered all over the floor and Alex was curled up into a ball crying.
"How many did you take?" I asked rushing over to him.
"ALEX ANSWER ME HOW MANY PILLS DID YOU TAKE!!!?" I began to shout.
"None!!" He called
"I couldn't do it Jack I'm a coward!"

I began to feel slight relief as I wrapped my arms around him. "You're not a coward" I whispered kissing the top of his head.
He continued crying clutching onto me "when I called you and when you began screaming that you love me and not to leave you...I-I couldn't do it"

"I'm glad you didn't do it I would have been so lost without you" I whispered trying to reassure him.

We spent the rest of the night lying down on his bed looking at each other.
"You ok?" I asked breaking the silence.
"I-I don't know...before I called you I had never felt so alone in my life...until I called you and it made me realise how much you care about me...and I couldn't do it...I'm a coward"

"You're not a coward suicide only ends things from ever getting better" I said. Alex shuffled closer his brown eyes looking into mine.
"What did you mean you loved me?" He asked.
"I mean I love you...more than a friend" I confessed shuffling closer to him.

He leaned forward hesitantly before pressing his lips against mine. I pulled him closer to me not breaking the kiss as if I was worried that if I let him go he'll be gone.

As we pulled away he looked up into my eyes "promise you'll never leave me?"

I gently cupped his cheek stroking my thumb across it "I'll never leave you Alex, I promise"