Band One Shots (Request)

Hidden Secrets (Sitkolson)*

This one shot was requested by young5sosfan
I apologise again that I have to change the story line a little.
Band - Motionless In White
Pairing - Sitkolson (Ryan X Ricky)
Warning - Depression and self harm

Ryan POV

I noticed before we even went on stage that something was wrong with Ricky he seemed a little jumpy and unusually pale.

"Hey you ok baby?" I asked him walking over kissing his head.
"Y-yeah I'm fine just a little nervous that's all" he responded.
"You'll be fine kick ass out there baby" I said before kissing his lips to go to my side of the stage.
"You too" he muttered.

The show was going really well and we only had a couple of songs left. I was starting to get really worried about Ricky as we played America. As it was coming up to his guitar solo Ricky seemed to be swaying side to side and tripping over his feet trying to keep his balance.

Balz gave me a look of confusion from across the stage and Chris had stopped singing. It's like everything went into slow motion as I realised what was about to happen.

I quickly removed the guitar from around me, throwing it onto the floor before running over to Ricky. I quickly caught him as he fell down causing the crowd to gasp and Chris, Balz, Vinny and Ghost to crowd around us.

"Someone call an ambulance!" I called out and Vinny went off stage to grab his phone.

*Time Lapse*
I sat in the waiting room in worry and fear of what was wrong with Ricky. So much was flooding through my mind.

"Hey he'll be ok" whispered Chris placing his hand on my shoulder.
"I-I hope so" I muttered.
"W-what if it's something serious Chris?" I asked as I could feel tears brim and my voice become shakey. 

I looked up as the nurse walked into the room. "Friends of Richard Olson?" She asked and we all crowded around to her.
"He's going to be fine" she first started
"But we noticed some cuts on his arm....looking at the cuts on his arm it looks like they have been done deliberate causing him to faint" she explained.
"H-how? Was it blood loss?" I asked confused and shocked that he could actually do this to himself.
"Sometimes with some people if they cut deep enough the body can go into shock causing them to feel light headed and cause their blood pressure to drop which is what happened to Richard"

I placed my hands over my face why? Why would he do this to himself that it's caused him to faint? "Is-is he awake?" I asked the nurse.
"He's awake and he would like to see you...Ryan I presume?" She asked.
"Y-yeah"
"The first thing he did when he woke up was call for you" she said leading me to his room.

As I walked in the first thing I did was run over to him. He looked up at me as I kissed the top of his head before sitting down on the chair next to the bed.
"Hey..." Muttered Ricky
"Hi" I responded and held his hand he smiled and I felt his fingers interlock with mine.

He looked up at me with his wife blue eyes "you've been crying?" He asked
"Of course I've been crying you scared the shit out of me when you collapsed on stage...what happened?" I asked him.
"I-I don't know I felt really dizzy and sick and the last thing I remember was falling and you catching me" he explained.

"Do you know why you fainted?" I asked
Ricky shook his head "do you want me to tell you why?" I asked raising my voice in annoyance.
"Because you've been cutting yourself" I spat, his eyes widened and he removed his hand from mine.
"You see the bandages on your wrists? Because you cut so deep your body went into shock!" I spat. I mean how could he do this to me? How could he not tell me what he was feeling?

I could hear sniffling and whimpers and I looked up at Ricky.
Ricky's bottom lip pouted out a little as his lip began to quiver as tears fell down. "I-I-I'm s-sorry" he sobbed and I began to feel guilt wash over me for getting angry with him.

I grabbed Ricky's hand again kissing it before looking back up at him. "No I'm sorry I shouldn't have got mad with you....its just I was so fucking worried and I would never want anything to happen to you...I love you so much Ricky" I confessed.
"I-I love you too" he said wiping his tears away before I felt his fingers interlock with mine again.

"Hey guys?" We both looked up to see Chris at the door.
"The nurse said Ricky's free to go" he explained.

"I'll give you guys a minute" he said before leaving the room.
"Why where you doing this to yourself Ricky?" I asked him gently stroking his hand with my thumb.
"I um....I've been getting a lot of hate recently for being with you and....I let them get to me and I began to think....that I'm not good enough"

I kissed his hand before leaning forward kissing his lips. "Never think that way you're perfect and I wouldn't have you any other way" I said before helping Ricky out of bed.
I removed my coat before passing it to him.

"You don't have to do that" he said surprise looking up at me.
"It's fine and I don't want you fainting again" I said before he slowly put the coat on which was a little big for him before I helped him zip it up causing him to blush.

"Ready to go?" Asked Balz
"Y-yeah" responded Ricky gripping tighter on my hand.
"Ricky?"
"Yeah?" He asked looking up at me.
"Promise me you'll stop and if you ever feel like this you'll talk to me?" I asked him.
Ricky nervously licked his lips before he nodded his head "I-I'll try"
"Thank you" I said before I kissed his lips before leaving the hospital.