Band One Shots (Request)

Insecure (Cameron x James) *

This oneshot was requested by AndyBiersackslipstix
Band - Asking Alexandria
Pairing - Cameron X James
Extras - Smut and Fluff

Cameron POV

For as long as I could remember I have always felt insecure about my appearance. I've always felt like it was something that wasn't my strongest point.

I mean I understand why people scream over Ben I mean look at him! He's got everything I haven't got... the looks, he's funny, charming and then there's me.....

I mean I should be happy, I have a boyfriend who loves and cares about me...but does he really? Or does he feel sorry for me?

The others had decided to go out for the night but I didn't feel like it. I know that James is concerned about me but why should he? He could go for someone better than me! So why does he choose to stay with me?

I lay down in bed with my eyes closed, every little negative thought that I had about myself flooded my brain. I thought I could hear noise but I ignored it. I felt the bed dip as someone climbed onto the bed and lay down next to me.

I slowly opened my eyes to see it was James. "Hey" he said softly
"Hi" I responded.
"You ok?" Asked James running his fingers through my hair.
"I-I'm fine" I muttered.
James shook his head "no....no you're not...Cameron you haven't been yourself for a while...what's wrong?" He asked. His eyes looked into mine as they were filled with concern.

I closed my eyes letting out a shaky breath before I decided to speak up "I....I don't like me"
"What do you mean?" He asked
"I don't like....the way I look" James kept quiet like he was waiting for me to speak more, to open up to him about how I feel.
"Everyday I look at myself in the mirror and wonder....why do you even go for someone like me?....there's so many people out there better looking...so why go for someone who has a face only a mum could love?" I asked him.
"Bullshit" was his response.

I shook my head and that's when James dragged me off the bed taking me to the mirror for me to stand in front of while he stood behind me. "When you look at yourself in the mirror? You're looking at fooking lies" he started.
"You wanna know what I see?"

"I see someone so sexy....you're tall, strong, awesome hair, masculine body like me! And you've got a fooking handsome face so I have no idea were your getting the idea of a face that only a mum could love from...you're fooking gorgeous Cam and you need to accept that!" He explained pointing at various parts of my body. I'm not going to lie it did make me feel better about myself.

He wrapped his arms around me before he pressed a kiss to my shoulder. I closed my eyes as I felt his kisses travel up my neck "w-what are you doing?" I asked nervously.
"I wanna show you how beautiful you are" he said before turning me around for my lips to touch his.

Quickly we both removed each other's clothing before we fell back on the bed. James kept his grip on me, lips touching every part of my body as if he was telling me what he liked about me and that every part of my body was perfect to him.

I closed my eyes trying to relax myself as James lubed his fingers before entering one finger in me. I bit my lip trying to focus on something else, it wasn't the best feeling in the world but I knew he was only trying to relax me.

"Sorry" he muttered kissing my shoulders before he entered another finger. I squeezed my eyes shut trying to think of anything else but the pain as he removed his fingers and lined up against my entrance.

I gripped onto his shoulders as he pushed into me. I breathed in and out trying to relax myself as I adjusted to him.
"Y-you ok?" He asked breathlessly
"Y-yeah" I responded, forcing the words out of my mouth and he began to slowly move being careful not to hurt me.

I moaned out loud as his thrusts became deeper and harder, gripping onto my hips and his lips latched onto my neck, marking parts of my neck as if marking me his.

I dug my nails into my shoulders as I could feel myself get closer. My breathing became hitched as James thrusters deeper and harder into me. James's lips locked with mine and his hand began to stroke my shaft as I released into his hand and our chests. James clutched onto me continuing to thrust into me releasing as I rode out my orgasm.

*Time Lapse*

I lay in bed snuggled into James arms.
"You ok?" He asked
"Y-yeah I'm fine" I muttered.
"Promise me you will talk to me if you ever feel like that again ok?" He said kissing my shoulder.

I nodded my head "I promise" I said giving a soft smile.
"You should never feel that way about yourself because it's the complete opposite and no one else sees you that way either...I love you Cameron"
I smiled a little shuffling closer to him "I love you too" I muttered before our lips touched again.

I apologise if it's not very good.