Band One Shots (Request)

I'm Fine Outside But I'm Dying Inside (Lee x Matt)

This is more of a friendship oneshot than a gay oneshot
Band - Bring Me The Horizon
Pairing - Lee x Matt (Nicholls)

Lee POV

To be honest I don't know how long I've felt like this. It's like I'm a ghost, a shadow no one knows or cares of my existence.

I feel alone and it's not like anyone would care if I left the band or if I was gone. Everyone pays more attention to Oli anyone seeing as he's the singer and as all the other girls say he's  better looking than me. The world is a hard place constantly told by "fans" on the internet that I'm not good looking and that I can't play guitar.

None of my band mates have noticed either they seem to think I can handle every problem that I have on my own.

I was currently at home just sitting on the couch in silence, thinking about everything. That's when the phone rang.

"Hello?"
"Hey mate" I would recognise that accent anywhere..Matt.
"Do you wanna hang out with us tonight?" He asked, to be honest I'm not the best in social situations I prefer to be in quiet places.
"I...I'd rather stay at home tonight...by myself..." I muttered.

"Ok.....are you alright Lee?" He asked I could hear the concern in his voice.
"I'm fine" I could feel a lump in my throat.
"You would tell me if something is wrong wouldn't you? We are friends right?" He asked.
"Yeah but honestly.... I'm fine" I said trying so hard to hold back tears.
"Lee?...."

"I'm fine" I whimpered
"Oh Lee...." He muttered. That's when sobs began to escape my mouth and tears began to fall. My hands began to shake as I kept hold of the phone in my hand.
"You know what fuck tonight! Stay where you are I'm coming over I'll be about ten minutes ok?" He said.
I nodded my head "ok" I whimpered
"Just hang on and we'll talk ok? I'll see you in about ten minutes" and that's when he hung up the phone.

I placed the phone down hugging my knees as I continued to cry. Why was I like this? I've never felt this emotional is it because I've kept my emotions hidden for too long?

Ten minutes had gone by and there was a knock of the door. Quickly wiping my tears with my sleeves I stood up from the couch walking over to the front door.

Opening the door I looked to see Matt standing outside.He gave a soft smile before walking into the house wrapping his arms around me as I began to cry again.

"Oh Lee why do you keep everything hidden from us" he whispered. We walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. He pulled a packet of tissues from his pocket handing them to me. "Thanks" I said giving a weak smile before pulling one out to dry my eyes.

"What's wrong Lee? to be honest were all worried about you...well me the most you've been so distant and quiet" he asked.
"It would probably sound stupid to you...I feel like ghost...like no cares in there and would anyone actually care if I was no longer in the band? I mean most people fine me ugly and say I can't play guitar" I explained messing with the tissue in my hands.

"Hey look at me" he said holding my hands. I looked up at him he looked serious not like his usual self.
"You may feel like you're unimportant and all that crap but you're not...we all love you Lee you're an amazing guitarist and you're always there to calm us down when we act like a bunch of annoying fuckers" he said causing me to chuckle a little.

"And you're not ugly Lee you should hear the amount of people on the Internet who think you are adorable it's a bigger percentage than the people who have said nasty shit, and if there judging you on your looks instead of how you play then they don't deserve to be a fan of this band!" He exclaimed.

"Sorry for wasting you're time my problems are stupid" I said looking at him.
"No there not were the stupid ones for not realising something was wrong sooner" he said.

He looked at each other for a moment before Matt held his arms out. "Come here" he whispered. I shuffled forward leaning into his embrace for a hug.

"Thank you...for listening" I muttered.
"Of course, what are friends for?"