Band One Shots (Request)

I'm Here (Cricky)

This oneshot was requested by XNikkiHorrorX and the plot was also requested by the user.
Band - Motionless In white
Pairing - Cricky (Chris x Ricky)
Warnings - Death and Panic Attacks

Ricky POV

I feel numb and broken. I recently came back from my Dad's funeral. I missed him...I missed him so much I just wanted him back.

I sat on the end of my bed in complete darkness. I've been getting texts all day from the guys asking if I was ok. I didn't really respond I just wanted to shut everyone out for now.

I looked at myself in the mirror man I looked like shit. I've just been awake most nights thinking about my dad. It hurts to think about him.
'Maybe I should get some sleep' I thought to myself.

I didn't bother to change the clothes I was in and climbed into bed to go to sleep.

I launched forward gasping for breath as I woke up from a bad dream. I looked around the room to see I was still in my room. That's when it hit me I will never see my dad again.

My breathing became heavy and shallow. I tried taking deep breaths but struggled as sobs began to escape my mouth. I grabbed my phone as I began to hyperventilate and dialled Chris' number the only one I feel like I can talk to right now.

"Hello?" Groaned Chris he must have been asleep. Well it was the middle of the night.
"C-Chris?" I sobbed
"Ricky what's wrong?!" He began to ask in panic.
"I *gasp* think I'm having a *gasp* panic attack!"
"Stay where you are I'm on my way I'll be two minutes ok?!" He called I could heard him climbing out of bed grabbing something.
"Ok" I breathed before hanging up the phone.

I hugged my knees continuing to focus on my breathing my body shaking with fear. I heard the door open and someone walk in.

"Ricky?! Ricky I'm here!" Called Chris as I heard him run up the stairs.
He rushed into my room kneeling down in front of me holding tightly into my hands.
"Ricky focus on your breathing ok?" Slowly I breathed in and out as I felt myself beginning to calm down.

Chris reached out and caressed my cheek "see you're ok now" he muttered. My lip began to quiver and I shook my head.
"No I'm not ok I miss him Chris" I whimpered as I burst into tears. Chris gave a look of sympathy before he sat down on the bed next to me wrapping his arms around me.

"Why did he have to go out of all the disgusting people in this world why him!" I cried clutching onto his arms. "I know it's hard" I whispered.

"You will get through this it will just take time" Chris explained. We sat together on the bed for about an hour. "You ok now?" He asked rubbing my back. I nodded my head.

He pulled me down to lie down on the bed with him. "Y-you're not leaving?" I asked surprised.
"Of course I'm not leaving you may not be having a panic attack now but you lost someone close to you Ricky I can't let you grieve alone" he said caressing my cheek.

"Thank you" I whispered. He gave me a soft smile.
"It's ok" he replied kissing the top of my head as I felt myself drift to sleep.