An Escape to a New Reality (A Hobbit Fanfiction)

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The walk back should have taken about 10 minutes, but it didn't. We had only gotten two steps, after agreeing to head back, when Kili pushed pulled me against him and kissed me. His lips moved against mine, his fingers diving into my hair and tugging my head back to deepen the kiss. The action causing me to moan. My brain had shut down, I could have cared less if an orc was beside us. All that I could think of was Kili's lips as he ran them across my neck. I slipped my hands under his cloak and dug my fingers into his back. Kili suddenly growled as he nipped at ear, sending a shudder down my spine. But soon enough it was gone. Puzzled I opened my eyes and saw Kili step away, his hands on my hips. His eyes dark with lust, lips slightly swollen and hair disheveled. "What's wrong?" I panted.

I watched his chest rise and fall with heavy breaths, he quickly looked around. "Nothing." I frowned at Kili's intense concentration on the sounds around us. I knew he was making sure no one else was around. Swallowing, I pushed down the twinge of pain in my chest. Slowly I pulled away, the place where his hands had laid now cold. "We really should get back now." I forced a small laugh as I headed back. Kili's hand pulled me back into him. "They can wait a bit longer." He leaned in to kiss me but the mood was already broken for me. I turned my head causing him to kiss my cheek. "What's wrong?" Kili pulled back to look at me. I tried to avoid his gaze but Kili cupped my cheek and pulled my face towards his. "What's wrong?" His voice was soft and concerned, slowly I looked into his eyes. I need to know.

"What are we doing?" I saw the confusion flash across his face. He opened his mouth to question my question but I held up a finger to his mouth. "I need to know what this means. If it's serious or just because you want to fool around."

"Fool around?" I paused. "Fool around, you know. You just want the physical contact of another without intentions of starting a relationship. But I need to know if that's what this is because if it is, I'm saying right now-"

"May. May!" The stern voice caught me off guard. Kili stepped forward pressing our bodies together once more. "I know of many who take lovers out of loneliness. But I promise you that is not my intent." I didn't hold back the scoff. "What can I do to prove that what I say is true?" I frowned and looked away. "I don't know. I just can't do this now."

"What are you saying?" Kili's voice hitched. His eyes furrowed with worry. I caressed his cheek and leaned up to gently kiss his lips. "Maybe we can just slow down. I just…" I leaned my forehead against Kili, trying to find the write words. "I…I'm scared."

Kili's hands stroked my back, but said nothing. I bit my lip before continuing. "I'm scared of getting my heartbroken again."

He held me tighter and kissed the top of my head. "I would rather face a thousand orcs, than hurt you." Even though I couldn't see his face, I trusted his words. That thought scared me the most.

I felt Kili gently pull me off of him and looked up to see his kind smile. "Come on." He held out his hand and I gladly took it. We walked in sync the remainder of the ways back.

We could hear the dwarves voices become louder as we approached. We no longer held hands. Along the way I decided that it would be better if we keep our new found relationship on a down low from the others, at least until I felt that I could trust myself with Kili. He wasn't happy about it but i had managed to take his mind off of it, when I suggested we prank the others.

I smiled up at Kili as we could see the glow of the fire. So excited to pull off our prank, I silently giggled. Suddenly I found myself pulled up against the wall, Kili pressed up against me and his hand covering my mouth. "Shh. If we are to do this, we must do it right." I nodded as I bit my lip to supress my laughter. It didn't help when the dwarf scolding me was trying not to laugh as well. As we calmed ourselves down, I could see Kili's eyes become dark. My heart pounded in my chest as he leaned. Our lips touched in a gentle kiss. Bring his hand up, he cupped my cheek and pulled me close deepening the kiss. There were no words to describe this kiss other than passionate. It was slow, lingering and made my head spin. I couldn't help but let out a tiny groan in protest as Kili pulled away. "And we will talk about us later. Ready?"