An Escape to a New Reality (A Hobbit Fanfiction)

I love you, goodbye

Breathing slowly became an issue with each step. My heart felt heavy in my chest. I began to regret changing out of Bilbo's clothes. I feel like a girl in these. Not that I wasn't a girl, or didn't like feeling like a girl. But the thought of appearing like this to the dwarves, with their disdain for elves and after fighting so hard to prove myself. I became overwhelmed with the feeling that it would all change the moment they saw me dressed like this. I stopped in my tracks. What if Thorin changes his mind cause I look like an elf….well very short elf…but…aishee! Oetteokaji?! I scratched my head with frustration. Looking in the direction of the dwarves, I double take where I came from and nod. Quickly I spin on my heels and start to walk back to the room to change.

"Miss May?" Balin's voice make me cringe and duck my head. Biting my lip, I slowly turn around to look at him sheepishly. "Un." Smiling he nodded to me. "If you had been a foot taller, I would have mistaken you for an elf." Even though his voice was kind, I could only muster a half smile. "Don't take it personally dear. You look beautiful." I bowed my head in thanks, letting out a relieved laugh. "Well, come along. Many of the others have gone to sleep and you should be doing the same. We are getting up at first light." I smiled with a nod as I walked back with him.

"So is this what Lord Elrond wanted to see you about?"

"Yeah. I guess Gandalf knew I wasn't going to leave and told Lord Elrond that I would need supplies. Still not sure how Gandalf knew that when I just changed my mind not too long ago." Balin chuckled and patted my back. "Gandalf knows many things, do not try to understand how he knows. But I am glad to hear that you will be staying with us."

"I am too." I smiled as we reached the others. The only one still up was Thorin. Thorin leaned against the stone railing, his eyes in the distance lost in thought. At the sound of my boots against the pavement, the dwarf turned to look at me. I felt myself blush as I saw them look me over. Really really wish I didn't change now. Why must they stare? Lifting my eyes to Thorin, I couldn't read the expression on his face.

"Lord Elrond thought I would need these…for the trip." I bowed my head hoping that he wouldn't yell or be mean. I heard him move from his spot and soon saw his cloak circle me. "I agree. You will have to thank Lord Elrond on your return home." I frowned. Home? I had forgotten about my home. I still had no idea how to get back home.

"You should sleep, we have a long road a head of us." Pushing the thoughts of home aside, I nodded. I looked around for a place to sleep when my eyes fell on Kili. He was sleeping on his side, back facing the wall and bangs falling in front of his face. I felt a smile tug at my lips as I kneeled down next to him. Looking up I saw Balin and Thorin whispering, unaware of me. Turning back to Kili, rearranged myself so I was sitting cross legged. His face was so relaxed. Every so gently, I reached out and moved his long bangs out of his face. His hair was so soft and thick. Unable to resist, I began stroking his hair, the feeling of it running against my fingers was strangely comforting. Using my arm as a pillow, I laid against my right leg while I continued to stroke his hair. Letting out another yawn, I succumbed to sleep.

I laugh as I lay onto him, holding his arms up above his head. I gently nip at his tan neck, extracting a low growl from him. With one hard thrust of his hips, he flips us over. Lips attack mine and my head is spinning. "Mine." The animalistic growl sends shivers down my spine as I nod. I can feel his fingers ghost down my stomach as he reclaims my lips.

"May." I smiled at the sound of Kili saying my name. "May. Wake up." Suddenly Kili was gone yet his voice still echoed around me.

"It is time to leave now." I slowly opened my eyes to find Kili leaning over me. "Huh?" It was only a dream. I lifted my head off my arm to take in my surroundings. I was still in Rivendell, still wearing the Elven clothes. The only thing different was the soft cushion of a bedroll beneath me. Sitting up I shifted glances at where I sit and where Kili sat. When did we switch?