Serenity [h.s]

Longing

- My heart it burns, yes it burns, yes it burns, We're oceans away, I'll be asleep at the time you're awake.

"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you." - Dirty Dancing.

Harry Styles

I woke up this morning with a gut wrenching feeling and I oddly didn't want to leave my bed. So I didn't really. I'd just work from my laptop. I called the office to make sure they'd cancel all my meetings and move them up the next day.

I had Hillary make me breakfast and eat it in my bed. While I type away an email on my laptop to one of the co owners, my phone vibrates. I pick it up, sliding it open, my heart fluttering and my stomach flipping as I get a message from Summer.

From Summer: I'm here

I smiled slightly.

To Summer: Good (: I hope you're ok and safe x

I sent it then bit my lip as I added another text.

I miss you xx

And then she didn't reply. I mean, why would she. She wouldn't miss me. And it's not her fault that I'm attached to her. I was mentally, physically and emotionally attached to this woman and it was mind numbing.

I groaned as twenty minutes passed by and she didn't text back. I hated this feeling of wanting to be so close to her. I really hated it.

And it was awful, because I missed her.

I really missed Summer.

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Summer Lowal

I smiled as we got to the building and went up the flight of stairs.

Cecilia said her roommate for the weeks,  Sarah, was more than happy to let us both stay. "She's the best really, kind girl she is.. with a spicy personality," she added a chuckle as we both walked in, greeted with a grinning blond, green eyes shining behind her square frames. Her body was the beautiful curvy kind and I felt jealous of how incredibly stunning she was. Her grin spread across her face, nose ring shining under the dim light of the living room.

"Hi, I'm Sarah! It's nice to finally meet you, Summer," Sarah gushes to me as I set my bags next to the door. I nod and give her a smile.

"Hello, it's nice to meet you too," Cecilia grins at us both and gives me a hug once more.

"Agh! I'm so happy you're here, Mary, I've missed you so so much," and my heart warmed at my nickname.

"I missed you too." I whispered. And the day went on, with us eating and chatting and talking about how winter was nothing compared to the London air on a daily basis  and talked about our jobs. It was really nice getting to know Sarah. She worked at a music studio as an assistant. She said it wasn't much yet but was leading her to her success. And I loved that about her enthusiasm, because things shouldn't be handed to you. I believe you should work for the thibgs you want.

My mind starts to slip to Harry and his text. I saw it but quickly put my phone away as Cecilia started to eye snoop. I didn't really want her to see what Harry had texted. And I was desperately wanting to reply back. I missed him too. I did. I just, I didn't want to admit that.

"I'm going to use the bathroom, excuse me." I politely exuded myself as Sarah and Cecilia brushed me off when a smile. They continued to talk as I entered the bathroom, locking the door, and slipping out my phone.

I began to type as I opened my messages. Harry's name at the top of the list.

To Harry: hi, sorry I got caught up, and thank you, I am..

I didn't want to reply to the I miss you. It was strange because my stomach bubbled with flutters as my heart beat rapidly in my chest. I was scared shittless it jump out of my chest.

My phone buzzed again.

From Harry: tell Cecilia I said hello, all the love x

I huffed and shoved my phone in my pocket. I flushed the toilet so it didn't look like I was just sitting in here doing nothing.

I left the bathroom and see the two girls seated on the couch still chatting.

I sat on the floor, looking up at them. Sarah looked down ans grinned. "Watcha' doin' on the floor, doll?" I chuckled.

"It's more comfortable than you think, carry on," the both chuckled and talked about this upcoming mini concert some artist was throwing and how she got three free tickets, wanting us to join. I only nodded politely as my mind still wonders back to Harry.

"Summer?" I snap my head to Cece, (a nickname I'd given her as a child),  and see her smirking..

"Sorry, what?" I cough and cross my legs.

"I asked, how's Harry?" I blushed but tried to cover it up with my hair and furrowed my eyebrow.

"He says hello, and he's good."

"Mum told me,  you know," fuck me sideways.

"Told you what?" I groaned as I rested on my elbows, sitting back.

She continued to smirk. "You both have something going on, or..? Because don't think I don't watch t.v. or have social media," I roll my eyes.

"Nothing's going on," I retorted with a frown. Honestly, nothing was going on between Harry and I. Sure he kissed me a few times..

I jacked him off..

We had rough sex..

Okay, so honestly I don't know, alright?

"But-"

"But nothing." I snapped with a huff avoiding eye contact. "He's just another rich fucker that gets what he wants."

And God did the words taste bitter leaving my mouth.
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Harry Styles

"No, fuck I said they were suppose to be sent next Thursday! Get your shit together before I fire you," I snapped and closed the line, throwing my phone across the duvet.

I was getting frustrated as fuck and being at home wasn't helping anything. All it was doing was making me more stressed than I am.

Oh and yeah, I fucking miss Summer.

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