In my head

Chapter 11

It's been 2 months. 2 whole months since Joy's birthday. I've made it 2 whole months with Jake. 2 months we have been together.
Life is amazing. Mum and dad are home every morning on weekdays. We leave at 7:30am. Their home every afternoon between 4-5pm.
On weekends they are home all day unless I go out they go to work. Mums enjoying her baking again and it's going really well. She's made a good lot of cash.

Today is Monday and I am now at school. I'm standing on the basketball courts with Jason, he's talking about what classes we will have, I'm not really paying attention. Yeah, first day back at school today. The holidays were really good. I spent a lot of time with Jake and when I wasn't with him I was hanging out with all my friends.

It's now February. 8 more days till my birthday. (A:N- I changed her birthday) Jason is still talking. "Pinch and a punch for the first day of the month" I say in the process of pinching and punching him. He winces in pain but then hits and kicks me saying "hit and a kick for been so quick" he chuckles. No one was on the bus this morning. None of our friends. Jason said that everyone sleeps in on the first day back and their parents bring them to school.

I still haven't seen Jake, which is unlike him. He always catches the bus and all his friends are here. I was going to go ask them where he is, but I chickened out.

I let out a scream as someone came up behind me and zapped me in the ribs I turn around to see Joy standing there with the biggest smile on her face possible. "Wow. Hello to you too." I say in a sarcastic way.

"Hello, Charlotte. Your looking good today" Joy complimented me. I was wearing Nike shorts with a plain white shirt with converse on my feet. My hair was thrown into a messy bun and I had no makeup on.

I looked at her weirdly. "There's nothing good about what I'm wearing. I look like I just woke up." I laugh. The bell rings and we all make our way to roll call.

*

First session we had an assembly welcoming everyone back to a new year. We got our diaries and timetables and then it was time for recess.

I'm standing in line for the canteen right now. As I turn my head to the left I see Jake walk up to his friends. He looks at me, I smiled but he is staring at me blankly. I turn around realising that is my turn to order. "Can I get a chicken burger, please?" The lady comes back with a chicken burger and my change. I walk away from the line over to Jake.

"Hey." I say. He looks down at me and smiles weakly. Looking him in the eyes ask "what's wrong?" He just shrugs and looks away. I can feel my heart falling apart. I mumble fine and walk away. If he doesn't want to talk to me, fine, I'm fine with that.

JAKES POV

I watch her walk away from me. I could tell the way she looked at me that I had just broken her heart. I didn't tell her what was wrong. I can't tell her what's wrong. She'll leave me.

Anthony pulls me aside. "Dude, I saw what you did this morning." He looks me in the eyes with anger.

"It's not my fault. She kissed me not the other way around." I say with annoyance laced through my voice.

"I saw her kiss you. I saw the whole thing. You didn't pull away, only to catch a breath and then you attacked her again with your lips. YOUR AN IDIOT!!" Anthony yelled.

"I KNOW I'M AN IDIOT!!" I yell back. "I knew this was going to happen again. I knew that I would go back to my old ways. I like that I have that affect on girls. I like that I can make them kiss me. But you know what I like it more when Charlotte kisses me. I love the way she kisses me." I snap. Looking him in the eyes.

"Then why didn't you pull away? Charlotte is your girlfriend for gods sake. You should have pulled away told her sorry I'm taken and walked away. Why do you do this?" Anthony asks pushing my back against a wall. "You need to tell her"

"I can't tell her, she'll leave me other wise. I can't let that happen." I say turning my head to the side.

"YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE!!" He yells once again pushing me. I push back yelling in his face. "WHAT'S DONE IS DONE. SHE'S NOT GOING TO FIND OUT ABOUT IT!" I turn around to walk away but I see a girl with soft blue eyes full of sadness. Tears streaming down her face.

Charlotte.

"You what?" she asks between breaths.

"I can explain" I said walking closer. Each step I take she takes another one back.

"There's nothing to explain. YOU CHEATED ON ME!" She yelled. I have never seen her like this. Crying or yelling and it scared me.

"Someone kissed me I didn-" she cut me off coming closer to me, venom laced in her voice. "You kissed her back. I now know why everyone told me to stay away from you, because you'll break me they said. I didn't want to believe it, I thought you were different, Jake. I thought you were."

I looked at her, I was so sad, I know I did the wrong thing. "I didn't mean to hurt you" I whisper. "Well you did" she snaps. The next thing I knew she was swinging her hand in front of my face and slapped me across my left cheek. It stung. "That pain on your cheek, is not even close to the pain I'm feeling here." Charlotte says placing her hand over her heart. She turns around walking away. I turn the other way, pushing past Anthony.

CHARLOTTE POV

Honestly I cannot believe I just hit him. But man he deserved it. I hate him, I absolutely hate him. I walked away with more tears coming down my face uncontrollably. Jason and Aaron saw me walking down the stairs and came running over to me. I was embraced in a tight hug. It felt safe, I felt safe. Soon I felt more people wrapping arms around us, I was now in the middle of a group hug. I couldn't help but laugh and cry at the same time. Sinking down to my knees Jason follows.

I lean into him as his arms wrap around my shoulders holding me close to his chest. We've been sitting here for awhile now. Everyone had left Jason and I. He still hasn't let go of me as I cry into his shirt.

I don't want to get up, I just want to dig a hole and die in it. I hate this feeling. My whole world has shattered. I don't know what to think of him anymore.
"We're going to have to get up sooner or later" Jason whispers in my hair. He lifts my chin up making me look him in the eyes. I feel a tear escape my eye and Jason wipes it away with his thumb.

"You were right. You warned me and I didn't listen. I jumped in head first and now look where I am." I cry.
Jason gets up pulling me with him. He walks me over to the table where everyone is and Joy pulls me in for a hug.

"I am so so so sorry, Charlotte." She whispers. I start shaking in her hold letting more tears out.