How you would defined the word 'Happiness'? When you feel satisfied? When you feel excited? Or something that you have achieved? Well I guess it feels so good to feel the happiness you want. I mean, who would not be? Anyone would sacrifice for that happiness. Be it with death. But sometimes, when you filled with too much joy, you haven't noticed that you have been hurting people. You became self-centered shit, that's why some of us are afraid to be happy cause they are worried that too much joy will kill them with an endless pain.
But did I joy too much to feel this pain? Did I abused too much? Why is it like I was exchanging my own happiness? How did I enjoy it? To think about it, I was miserable to get his attention, but someone had taken it already. Why do I have to feel this pain? Can't I just let go? But how?
Love was sometimes fair and unfair. It can make you miserable and crazy. It is a powerful weapon that no one can stopped even the most powerful person here on earth. Everyone needs love. Every fucking time.
Every hour, Every second and minute. But why is Love's unfair to me? Why can't the person I love, love me back?
I'm smart enough to think that he can't love me cause he never noticed me. Until when Vin? Until when can I get my happiness? Do I need to sacrifice? Do I need to change myself just to divert your attention to mine? Do I need to do something just for your attention?
But Im freaking scared to fall. No, I'm already falling. But the thing is, I'm freaking scared that you would not catch if I fall so hard. It will hurt me so much. I swear cause I know how much the pain cost me while Im just watching you and your girl happy.
Until when you will give my happiness Vin? Until fucking when?
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You never noticed
RomansaYou never noticed I was there for you. You never noticed that I was falling. I was falling so hard. so please, I beg you. catch me.
