Broken (Completed and editing)

Birthday girl's surprise.

 "Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, or something you're afraid to love, or somewhere you're afraid to go. It's gonna hurt, it's gonna hurt because it matters"

Veronica's POV:-

I am lost. It feels like drowning but there is no water. What happened to me back there, it was like I lost all sense of right and wrong. My brain turned to mush. That decision can cost me alot and from the looks of it, it will. Even my father's face told me that it was not going to be easy. 

But then again........

How could have I said no to him when he said he would beg for it if he had to and if that didn't work with me well then there was only one option right? Force. 

After signing the papers I came to my room, restless. And now I had to meet that guy's grandparents with him for the first time. Good way to speed up the process I meet the guy who I should presumably love and get married to also I meet his grandparents forget meeting the parent first. Cool this will be so much fun. All this feels like some sick joke.

This whole thing, these few days that passed, they all seem like some nightmare I can't seem to snap out of. One after the other there is something that keeps standing in my way. I know dad is hiding something but he won't tell no matter how much I try to make him talk, he was never one to open up. His sudden interest in my life, things like this never go unnoticed by me.

"Stop thinking idiot!! You just need some sleep, it will make sense later. It has to." I chanted to myself as I stuffed a few necessities in my bag. Oh God how am I going to tell Care, Eric and Brenda of all people. They'll think I'm just too desperate for my fathers love isn't it the truth?

Sitting beside my bag on the bed I laid back and closed my eyes and tried to stop thinking about it, and it was impossible. 

Would mom want this? Would she approve of this, how would I know if I am going into the right thing? One thing I know for sure is that she would have never let dad force me into this and that should be reason enough for me to know that this is wrong. Getting up I pulled the keys of the piano room started walking towards it. 

Maybe spending sometime in that room would help ease my mind.

Getting in the room I switched on the lights and opened the sliding doors, the cool wind was always refreshing. There was something about the wind that blew in this room from behind our house.

When I was little I used to say that my mothers voice came in with the wind, I would sit here playing the piano no matter how bad I was at the time, it felt like mom would come and whisper the words and the hum in my ears and I would then sing.

Moving towards the piano I opened the lid, sat on the stool and randomly started pressing the keys. I grew up and slowly I started drifting away from this room and probably my mother because once I stopped singing I felt empty again. 

The loss was still there and I couldn't do anything to change that reality.

This was the first time I was completely blank as to what I should sing, I just didn't feel like opening my mouth or simply even interacting with someone. This was never supposed to happen I had my path cut out for me no matter what I wanted.

I only wanted to be happy and this not what happiness looks like.

My phone started ringing and I received it uncertain of who it was because an unknown number flashed. "Miss me?" Aaron's cocky voice sounded from the other side. 

"only in your dreams" I rolled my eyes even though he couldn't see it but I was sure he knew.

"Aww come on we both know you can't resist me" he whined like a little girl who suddenly became a mean girl after turning 15.