Broken (Completed and editing)

War with tears

"Every night she would change herself, stay up late and grow deeper in love. She wanted to love it all, everything and everyone. And how ironic was it, she wanted to save the world. The same world who couldn't even remember her name"

  Veronica's POV:-

"Dad, i thought you'd be here for Christmas. I haven't seen you in such a long time and you're leaving again" i felt like crying and rolling on the floor like some spoiled brat but decided against it, because i was already pouting big time.

"I have work sweetie its really important for me to go or else i would have postponed it." More important than me. A flash of anger passed through me but i didn't want to make a scene in front of Aaron and Allison who by the way was constantly smirking at me sitting beside Aaron like she fucking won the lottery. "Besides you have your husband with you. You can also go meet Brenda and James they miss you"he said.

I didn't speak at first because i wanted to stomp my feet and walk away. "It's fine. I'll get the dishes why dont you guys talk whatever business you wanted to deal with" my words came through clenched teeth.

"Please understand, honey. I cant stay" i did not look at him, i didn't want to see that he was running from me again just like every other time. Aaron kept staring at me and i could not decipher his expressions.

"You know what, it's fine...it's okay, i'll be okay. I guess i'll just go with Eric. He offered me to visit him and his family in San Francisco. I understand 'business' is more important" it was only Christmas i got to spend a whole day with my father and now i don't even get that. I just could not stop myself from giving that snide comment at the end.

I'm just not good enough for any-fucking-body. Not dad, not mom who left me alone to face the world, not Jake and not even Aaron.

Every Time he had kissed me after the wedding, he seemed to have regretted it as soon as he stopped. I didn't want to be near him at first but now i don't know what's happening to me, its like he is pulling me to him. And if he regrets kissing me then maybe i am not desirable enough because lets face it, my own father chooses his work over me.

Without another word i stood up and walked in the kitchen with my plate in hand "Veronica hone-" my father started but i didn't look back for the fear that i would start crying. But from the corner of my eye, i saw Aaron gaping at me. Now whats wrong with him?

Coming inside the kitchen i placed the plate in the sink and took support from it taking deep breaths to calm myself.

What have i ever done that he does not want to even see my face! Was i that much of a burden or am i still that much of a burden. I can count on my freaking fingers of the times when he looked at me without that look in his eyes that said, i was a reminder of his dead wife-and trust me, my fingers were more than enough.

I am going through hell since the day he tied me off to Aaron and he cannot even give me a day from his life.

All these thoughts have never surfaced in me but i knew they were there. I was just afraid that maybe if they came out, if my anger towards my father came out-i'd never be able to fulfill the promise i made to mom.

And now......they are surfacing and i am scared. Scared that i would be left empty handed without dad and maybe even without Aaron.

Am i scared to lose him too?........

I should get back before anybody comes in here. Sighing i wiped any stray tears and walked outside to see they all moved to the living room, i was relieved to see that or else i'd have to do that awkward confrontation thing you do when you get angry at your family and run to your room but then you eventually have to come out to get food or whatever and have to prepare to face them.

I quickly finished and walked towards the living room but before i could walk in i heard my name and stopped.

"He left me no choice i had to do this. Veronica is the only thing i have left but this was important to me more than anything i could not let it go." My father spoke.

"She seemed.............. happy today...... i have never seen her like this. this marriage was a big shock to her. When i tell her everything and whatever she decides, you will respect that. I expect you to keep yourself in check. I don't want you two doing anything, do you get what i'm trying to say. I am grateful for all your help so far but i don't want my daughter regretting any decision she made when she was in the dark and you are the one who has to take care of that" I sure did get what he was trying to imply and i was sure i looked like a red bell pepper at the moment. He was talking about our very intimate moment at the dining table when he walked in on us.

But what are they talking about. I know one thing for sure that there was a reason behind me marrying Aaron because this one sided conversation did say just that. But i did know from the beginning that all this had it's reason and what Aaron said, that day after the wedding when we arrived here.

Someone cleared their throat behind me and i turned looking like a deer caught crossing the road-in headlights.

"Did you know spying in business matters is is not the best virtue and maybe even illegal" Allison scoffed rolling her eyes.

"Oh yes and fucking your boss who is already married is too" i replied without missing a beat and watched her fuming, i have had enough with this bitch.

"You know what. You said you were his wife but in reality i don't see you two that close. Did you ever think that maybe he just doesn't want you or is not satisfied with you. I think he is looking for someone who can fulfill all his needs." She scoffed clearly pointing herself.

Even though i tried to shrug off her words, they still seem to linger around my head. I know we are not sexually intimate with each other or even intimate at any level aside from those surprising yet amazing and maybe even.....meaningless kisses because i never gave him a chance.

What if he really was nice, what if i had given him his chance and he didn't let me down. Was i really way too much careful for my own good. Am i really the reason i am unhappy because i never let people in.

Not even my own best friend is aware of my past. Okay so that didn't help me one bit.

"Hey i was just about to leave" dad stood up and Aaron did the same. Aaron was eyeing me suspiciously. What'd i do? Also he seemed somewhat angry with me.

"Alright thanks for the dinner Happy thanksgiving to both of you. And Veronica i am really sorry i cannot be here this time but if you want then you two should go to San Francisco it'll be a change for both of you" He kissed my forehead and walked towards the door with his hand on my shoulder pulling me to his side. I wanted to protest for him leaving so early but i didn't want him to remove his arm from over me. I'm really needy and desperate, i know.

Did he just say "both of us"! Woa he wants Aaron to go with me. What will i say to Eric. I'm sure he wont want Aaron in his house.

GOD!!!! I'll just deal with this later i have too much on my plate right now.

Dad bid farewell one last time and started towards his car. Allison still stood right in between the gate. Looking at Aaron expectantly smiling her hoe smile. What she wanted a goodbye kick again?

"Alright then i'll see you at work Aaron." She moved forward with a smirk she passed my way, it was hateful-and wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged him.

Here i was contemplating whether or not i had been too rejective of Aaron and now he is letting this woman wrap around him like a blanket right in front of me. I wanted to punch a wall maybe even Aaron and Allison.

Even their names looked good together. I was pathetic GOD!

Sighing i turned and started walking away when a hand wrapped around my wrist and pulled me back, i was now back to back with Aaron, he moved a little bit back making me take a step or two forward and pried Allison off of him.

I tried to pull away but he didn't let me, i was completely hidden behind him. I could feel his heart thumping. Yeah he did like her better than me. And this saddened me even though i promised myself to not get attracted to Aaron. I still did.

"Allison i don't need you at the office. You can take a vacation till new year. I also wont be at the office that often. I'll be spending time with my wife." She sighed.

"But i don't see you two living as husband wife" she asked him clearly irritated. I think she thought i was gone.

"I slept with you only because i was drunk and you saw it, you should have stopped me right there. It was a mistake but i guess i was at fault equally for leading you on i am sorry for it. But i don't want any relation with you except a work related one" i tried to remove my hand again from his grasp but he tightened it again and now curled his arm around my waist and over my stomach to keep me flush against him. That wasn't fair i had a tiny waist he even caught hold of my hand's wrist so i could not move.

"And about me and Veronica It's my personal life and i think you should not interfere. She is really important to me" he pressed my stomach against his back for a fraction in a hurry as if i'd disappear.

"Oh i see" that's all she said, serves you right husband stealing bitch.

I just face palmed myself mentally for thinking that. HUSBAND STEALING BITCH! really?!

"Alright, i hope things are clear now I'll see at work, okay?" I guess she nodded and left because i didn't hear another word.

I didn't know how to react. Should i just shrug him off of me and run to my room and not talk about everything that happened today or confront him like normal people. But what will i ask him.

"Hey dude you slept with her but you also like me?.... so you want me to be a hoe and let that pass....actually on second thought hoes don't let shit pass so you want me to be mistress but then again i am the wife an she is the hoe. You don't even have a name to give me. Oh and also you kissed me remember. Wanna talk about it" oh wao how intelligent i would sound saying this. Note the sarcasm.

I stood planted against his back. Thinking about the whole day through. God i was such a wuss because even though i wasn't humiliated or anything but still i felt tears on my cheeks. What is up with my emotion gland because i think it just fucking burst i cant keep control over my anger, my tears, my happiness, my giddiness.

What the fuck is wrong with me.

"Veronica....?" I didn't answer because i feared he would hear all my emotions. He can see through me.

So he turned but kept his arms around me, he just turned, and now i was planted flush against his front side.

"Aren't you going to say anything?" He whispered in my ears soothingly, it was that voice that just made you melt with its comfort.

My lower lip quivered before a sob escaped my lips because i felt this would not last long.

I felt like i'd be heart broken again. Like i'd break again.

Just like every other time.