Broken (Completed and editing)

Broken

"Just once i want to be worth fighting for. Just once i want to believe someone when they say they wont hurt me, and they will never leave. Just once i want to be able to look someone in the eye and not think how bad it would hurt when they leave me. Just once i want someone to be afraid of losing me. Just once i want to feel like i matter, that i am important.
Just once."

Veronica's POV:-

Sometimes we are blinded by our own desires and we soon lose track of the right path. We try our best to make decisions that have no room for regrets and vulnerability. Unfotunately, we are not that omniscient.

We are clueless as to what lays ahead. I for one never thought Mom would die, at least my 9 year old self didn't know it at that time. Then i thought Dad would never leave me, to raise my ownself, and when he did. I thought he would come back. I was clueless that i was supposed to marry Aaron, and i never believed i'd fall for him.

That was maybe not even a thought, i think would have have humored me the very least when i met him. He acted like a man whore at first, chasing his new fuck dump thing, that thing obviously being me.

Then he went a little soft and caring on me after he pinned me to my car, to that i think he was guilty. Then with the blow of marriage he sort of turned off. Me with my grief and stress, i never took notice of that.

He became resentful of me and infuriated with the most simple things. Maybe at first i hated him but he charmed his way back into my life and made a permanent place.

Sometimes we are so overcome by our own resentment, ire and aching that we willingly cover our eyes and ears to things that are probably not even hidden.

And that leads to becoming one of the two pieces of broken glass.

We lived through all that. Me and Aaron, we emerged victorious with wounds that healed. Leaving scars as remembrance.

Aaron became more considerate towards me but maybe i could not reciprocate, i did not do enough. Constant fear of losing my happiness, never let me get involved completely. Maybe i made my issues a centre of attraction?

But then again. Aaron was my 'issues'

All my actions last night, were an attempt at saving my drowining ship. A series of people-especially those who i needed most and when i needed most abandoned me.

I tried saving the one bit i had left. I had to, i just had to.

But........that was an utter failure. I was already destroyed. And i never even knew.

I never expected to sit in this car in the middle of nowhere and bawl my eyes out, after i had the  best night of my life.

Just when i thought i finally had something to call my own, it all came crashing down.

The events of this morning were extremely clear and maybe imprinted forever to my memory.

Even though the events of last night were extremley vague to my brain, but i knew for sure that what happened this morning was something i would never forget.

It was worse than mom dying on me, because i saw that coming my way before hand. But this........I  had no words for it.

Like i said before. We are completely mystified of the things that lay ahead.

My mind dived back in the memory of today for the millionth time.

The sun was streaming through the large window of the room and the cold winter wind was nipping at my skin, coming through that very window. The sun rays were adding to the throbbing in my head.