My Understandings. (Of Mice and Men love story.)

I've Got A War in My Mind

I woke up laying on Melanie's  shoulder. I didn't feel well at all. The light from the window shinned bright through out my room. I heard her mumble stuff, before opening her eyes. "Abb?" She asked stretching. I took my head off her shoulder and put it on my pillow. "Yeah." I said. "Okay, just making sure I wasn't at a random person's house." She said rolling over, facing me. 

Her makeup was smeared all over her eyes, and her hair was messy. 

I shouldn't talk since I probably look worse. She smiled softly. "Thank you for being my best friend." She said playing with a stand of my red hair. I smiled back. "Why are you saying thank you?" 

"Because I treat you like shit most of the time." She said. I looked down at the ring Shay got me. "You dont treat me like shit." I said, moving her bangs out of her face, tracing her black eye. "Yes I do-" 

"Where is she?" I heard Lux outside the door. "No, they're sleeping!" I heard Austin, I looked at Mel. Lux busted the door open. "Melanie, im sorry." He said, but Melanie still faced me. I sat up and tied my hair in a ponytail. "Get out." I said. "No." He said. I grabbed my shorts that were on the floor beside my bed, and slipped them on without buttoning them, before getting out of bed. "Get out now, or i ill call the cops." I started pushing him out the door. "Please just let me talk to her." 

"No." I said. "Please." He looked into my eyes. I looked at Austin behind him. "You've got 10 minutes." I said. I walked out of the room. "Its too fucking early for this shit." I walked to the bathroom. 

I washed the makeup off my face, and went pee. I brushed my teeth, and all together it took about 10 minutes. I opened the door to my room again. "That was 10 minutes, out." I said. 

Melanie was sitting on the edge of the bed. He got up solemnly, and walked out. Austin showed him out. 

"Im getting an abortion tomorrow.." Melanie said after a few moments of silence. "I need you to come with me." 

 "Are you sure?" I asked. "Im sure." She replied. 

"Im going to make breakfast." I said taking my jean shorts off and putting fuzzy pink pj pants on. I walked down stairs and hear Shay's soft snores. He laid on the leather couch without a shirt on. I moved his sweaty hair out of his face. He rolled over a little, and stopped snoring. "Abbs?" He asked, holding my hand. "Yeah." He opened his eyes the slightest bit. 

"IM LATE! IM LATE!" I heard my mom yell from upstairs. She ran down the stairs with messy hair, her pant suit, trying to put on her heels. "Bye Abby! Dont do anything i wouldn't do!" She yelled grabbing her purse and walking out the door. Now Shay was wide awake since my mom was yelling at the top of her fucking lungs. 

"Come here." He said pulling on my arm. i pulled my arm away. "Ah shit." He said closing his eyes and putting pressure on his eye. "Someones hung over." i rolled my eyes. "Abby-" He made more noises of obvious pain. "You know how I feel about alcohol." I said. He rubbed his head. "Im sorry." He said, still in a lot of pain. "No you're not." I hissed, venom dripping with every word I spoke. 

I bitterly walked to the kitchen and got a silver pan out of the cabinet. I put it on the stove angerliy, then grabbed four eggs. 

I turned on the stove, then waited a few minutes. Melanie came down wearing some of my pjs and with her hair in a bun. She smiled, then grabbed some asprin from the cabinet. "You know my house better than i do." I laughed. The doorbell rang. "Can you get that?" i asked cracking eggs. "Yeah." Melanie walked to the front door. Pretty soon her and Jenna were standing in my kitchen. "Hey, want some breakfast?" I asked. "Nah I already ate." She said putting her sunglasses on her head. 

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"So when do I get to meet Shay and Austin?" Jenna smiled. I looked at her with a mouth full of food. "Shays hungover and sleeping." Melanie said. "I think Austin's in the guest house, but hes really hot." Melanie laughed in a hushed tone. "Ew." I laughed, still choking down some egg. "He is!" Melanie protested. 

"Abb!" I heard Shay groaned. I rolled my eyes then got up and walked to the living room. "Can you help me walk to the bathroom. I really have to pee." 

"No." Shay grabbed my arm as I was about to leave. "Please." His green eyes were blood shot. I sighed loudly. I walked around the couch, and Shay sat up. He wrapped hi arm around my shoulder, and we walked to the guest bathroom downstairs. 

I stood outside the door as Shay went to the bathroom. I listened to him puking violently, and it made me really sad. "Babe, do you have an asprin?" He asked from the bathroom. "Yeah hold on a sec." 

I walked back to the kitchen. Jenna was eating a piece of toast. "Whats wrong?" She asked. 

"Hes so fucking hungover he couldn't walk to the bathroom on his own. He's in there throwing up. He knows I dont like alcohol." I said very quietly. I went into the cabinet and got the bottle of tums and asprin. I filled up a cup of water then walked to the bathroom. 

"Open the door." I said. A couple seconds later he opened the door. His face was sweaty, and his hair was wavey and messy. "Here." I said hanging him two asprins and two tums. He swallowed the pills, then chewed on the tums. "Cmon." I said, putting his arm on my shoulder. I helped him up the stairs. 

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After I made him take a shower, he laid in my bed. "Abby, im sorry! How many time do I have to say it?" He asked. 

I closed the baby pink curtains. "If you were really sorry you wouldn't have drank so much." I snapped. "How do I know you didnt cheat on me while you were drunk?" I cocked an eyebrow. "I can assure you I didn't sleep with anyone Abigail. Im engaged to you. I would never do such a thing." He reasoned. "Mhm." I said, walking out of the room and turning off the christmas lights that are hung up on my wall. I slammed the door behind me, hoping I hurt Shay's head. 

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"Ugh!" I groaned putting my face in my hands in the kitchen. "He didnt cheat on you Abby." Melanie said. "I was with him pretty much the whole time and I didnt even drink that much." 

The back door opened, and Austin appered with his jacket and beanie on. "Hey Abb, can I talk to you... outside?" He asked. 

Austin on the side