My Understandings. (Of Mice and Men love story.)

So Close No Matter How Far

Before leaving, I went to the school and looked at the mural. Max was such a good spirited kid. Smart too. He just didn't make the right decision. I held the picture in my hand of us together, then put it in my bag sneakily before walking back to my car quickly, hoping to go unnoticed. 

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Once I finally got to California it was about 7 pm, I drove to Austin's house.

I ran my fingers through my messy hair, and rang the doorbell, stepping back on the steps.

Austin's tired eyes appeared. He smiled, making his cheeks do that thing where they wrinkle the skin by his eyes. "Hey Abb, I thought you were coming tomorrow." He hugged me tightly, then shut the door behind him. "How is she? How are you?" I asked. He shrugged. "We're about to leave to go to the hospital now. Do you want to come? Shay's not going so I don't no if you-" I nodded. "Of course." he smiled and hugged me again, looking me in the eyes before kissing me.

He kissed me so softly I felt safe, and secure. His kiss felt like a thousand puppy kisses pecking at my lips. Austin's soft lips cradled mine like a mother holding her child and realizing how much she loves them.

And in that moment, I realized, I love Austin.

It was right in front of my eyes.

I love Austin, not Shayley. 

I looked up to his big chocolate brown eyes. "Sorry" he said, backing up. I shook my head, and grabbed the folds of his camo green jacket, and kissed him again, feeling his warm lips upon mine. I put my hand behind his soft neck, feeling the flaps of his wavy hair just above his nape. 

He put his hands over my ears, and kissed back. "Austin we need to-" 

Austin's dad opened the front door. "Hey Abigail how are you?" he laughed awkwardly. "We'll be right there dad." Austin said still turned to me, his face red. "I'll be in the car." his dad laughing, patting him on the back. 

I laughed after his dad closed the door. "Wanna go?" he asked taking my hands. "I'll meet you there. I'm going to my hotel and unpack." 

"Why'd you get a hotel, you know you can stay here." he smiled, fiddling with my hoodie zipper. I raised my eyebrows and laughed. "You'd really want to do that while your father is just down the hall from your room?" 

"I am eighteen you know." 

"How about I leave my suitcase in the car, and we can go to the hotel and unpack later." he smiled big. "Sounds like a plan." 

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We piled in the back of his dad's van. 

Austin's hand rested on my thigh as we drove. 

Once we got there, Mr. Carlile ordered us to get him and his mom some coffee. We walked through the halls together trying to find the stash of coffee hospitals always have. 

When we finally found it with the help from a friendly nurse, we made the coffee. His dad likes it black, his mom like two creams and one sugar. 

After we stayed with his mom, whos looking 100 times better, Austin and I drove to the hotel. 

"Brooks." I said to the front desk man. He handed me my keys, and Austin carried my suitcase in for me. 

We walked down the hallway and into the elevator closing it before anyone else came. While we rode up to the 10th floor of the hotel. Austin traced th seam of my denim shorts, and I moved away. He laughed then pout twi fingers in my belt loop pulling me closer to him.

The elevator came to a stop. When we walked out a middle aged couple took our place. "If you want me, you gotta catch me." I said breaking into a full sprint down the hall way. "Thats not fair!" Austin yelled holding my suitcase in his arms. I looked back to see him catching up. He ran faster, and I slowed down because I wanted him to catch me. He let go of my bag, then grabbed me by my waist and threw me against the door of the room. 

He kissed me harshly before smiling. I broke the kiss and unlocked the door. 

"Get on the bed." Austin's husky voice said after the heavy hotel door shut. 

I did as he ordered. "Strip. Bra and panties" he commanded. I sat on my knees zipping my jacet down to my thin tank top. I threw both the tank top and the hoodie off in a swift motion. He looked at me hungirly as I laid flat on my back. I kicked my black vans off, making them thud on the floor. I peeled my socks off, then laid back down. 

I unbuttoned the blue denim, and unzipped the shorts, slipping them off. 

"Your turn." I raised an eyebrow look at Austin leaning on the dresser. He threw his green jacket to the ground to reveal a grey cotton shirt. He threw that off to show his muscular, but not ab ridden, stomach with the aperance of his 2 dog tag necklaces. He unbuttoned his black jeans, then threw them to the ground. 

He hovered over me, pinning my arms above my head. He kissed my neck, before finding that spot to suck on, and make my knees weak. His cold metal necklaces brushed my chest a few times, before he unclipped my bra, and threw it to the floor. 

My arms broke free from his hold, and I traced his boxer line, making his breathing hitch. "Do you want me?" he said in a breathy whisper. "Yes." I said, closing my eyes hearing him take his boxers off. 

His fingers laced through the side of my panties, pulling them past my knees. "Tell me if im hurting you." Austin breathed in my ear before finally giving me what I wanted.

My eyes shut tighter and tighter. I dug my nails into Austin's back, wimpering before he gave in. His sweaty body collapsed on top of me and his head was buired into my neck.