My Understandings. (Of Mice and Men love story.)

Small Mind.

I fell asleep with a bad feeling in my stomach. But I had a wild dream. 

-Dream-

"Shay!" I called out. "Abby! Where are you?!" I was running through a dark room. "Shay!! Dont leave me!" I yelled. Suddenly I saw his brown hair. "Its okay Im here." He whispered. I tried to hug him but then his eyes went souless. "Shay?" I walked back.

Suddenly we were at the bridge where Max killed himself. Shay had the gun to his head.

-Reality- 

"NOO!" I screamed waking everyone up. Gielle rushed to my bed. She whiped my face. "Its okay it was just a dream." She said hugging me. I cried into her shirt. "Shhh." Se said running her fingers down m back. "What the hell was that?!" Brandy asked. "Just shut up ok!" Gielle said. I looked down at my hand. I was shaking uncontrolably. "I need Shay." I whispered. "Where is he?" 

"Hes sleeping in his room." Gielle said. I grabbed my phone and called him. "Hello?" He said sounding tired. I sighed in releif. "Sorry i woke you up. I needed to hear your voice." I said whiping my tears away. "Are you ok? Why are you crying?" He asked sounding concerned. "I had a bad dream.. thats all." I said. "Do you want me to come up there?" He asked. "No its fine." I said smiling. "Okay. I love you beautiful. Sleep well." He said. "Love you too Shay. Night." I said. Gielle smiled. "Im going to sleep. Night." Gielle said. The rest of the girls already went to sleep. 

I laid in bed thinking about the dream. 

Is Max trying to tell me something, or is Shay suicidal. 

I started to think about Max. 

His blonde hair and brown eyes, his one tattoo of my name on his shoulder. How everyone thought I murdered him. 

I whiped my tear away, then felt a pit of grief in my stomach. 

He was the one who got me hooked on drugs. He abused me at times. Why did I care so much about him? I have no idea. It has been two years and I still replay his death in my head. The blood splatering on my arm, crying so loud people stared, watching his body drift down the river. 

 I rolled over on my face and sighed. Pretty soon I dozed off. 

I woke up to Brandy's alarm clock blasting shitty music. I rubbed my eyes, then changed. I sat on my bed when I was done and waited for Gielle to get ready. "Screw it." I whispered dialing Shay's number. I heard him pick up but he didn't say anything. "Shay?" 

All I heard was heavy making out and grunting. 

I jumped off my bed and ran to Shay and Austin's room. 

I saw Austin walking away from them room. "AUSTIN! Give me your key now." I yelled. "Why?" 

I opened the door and saw Shayley in bed with some blonde girl. "Fuck." He said. 

I laughed then walked out. "Heres your key back." I said to Austin tears running down my face. I started running back to my room. "ABBY! WHAT HAPPENED!" Austin yelled after me. Pretty soon he caught up to me. "Abigail. What. Happaned." He said taking short breaths. "Who was he in bed with?" 

"What?" 

"WHO THE FUCK WAS SHAYLEY IN BED WITH AUSTIN!!?" I screamed louder. "What are you talking about?" He asked. "SHAY IS IN BED WITH SOME BITCH!" 

"He just fucked up." Austin said. "Come with me." Austin grabbed my arm and walked back to the room. He opened the door and Shayley was getting dressed. "Shayley what the fuck is wrong with you!?" He yelled pushing him up against the wall. "Get off!" He yelled back. "IM SORRY OK!" He yelled at me and Austin. "IM FUCKING SORRY!"