Oblivion

Part 23 - Confused

Being together and more than friends is the last thing you wanna do with the ones you love and cherish the most. Don't you just hate the feeling when you found out the truth that she loves another guy but not you? You're just loving someone who doesn't love you back. It's a waste of time. Giving up is the last thing you want to do because you've lost the game. He's a better guy than you are that's for sure and yes that's the reason why she chose him instead of you. Anger, pain and sadness is part of your daily life now ever since you lost her. I burst to tears when I just imagine they're conversation together. Should've been us. But I was just never good enough. Never the guy she dreams about. I hate the thought of that she's happier with another guy. Just try to remember what we had together, it's all vanished now. It was my fault too for being a coward to not tell the truth before the table turned. I cry myself to sleep. I cut myself to satisfy my empty soul. I'm having sleepless night because she's always there haunting my mind. My only last is to start all over again. The time when we were happy with each other's company. The time when we could feel the love between us. But, I know it's never gonna come true. The only thing I could do now is just keep my eye on you in this silence. Care for you inside this empty soul of mine. And love you endlessly. I apologize for the past arguments we had and misunderstandings. I just can't get over you. You're the cause of this pain and war that I created. I love you, but I just try to accept the fact that you're gone and you're never gonna love me again. I'm sorry. Tell me now should I just give up and go or just stay because you still need me? If you still need me, show me the effort of you wanting me to stay, if you want me to go i'll go and never comeback. I just wish the best for you and him.