Oblivion

Part 5 - Depression

I'm out of ideas. I don't know how to describe it. It's maybe the feeling of being left alone. Broken , wrecked and weak. Makes you shiver every night just by feeling it. Silence could help. The silence kills you inside slowly but it helps. Maybe. The cycle repeats till you found the right one or it could maybe last forever. Self-harming sucks. Just by seeing the blood runs out makes you feel satisfied. Shows how a complete psycho you are. The feeling that sucks the most is when you haven't moved on yet but she has. Or maybe she's just using that guy just as a distraction to avoid feeling what you're feeling currently. If the relationship really meant something to us , the pain won't easily disappear. You just lost you're other half how could that not hurt. Fuck that. A distraction could help but it wouldn't feel the same anymore. Not after what you've gone through. Mixed feelings sucks. You get so confused when you're in a situation where everybody's happy but you don't know what to feel. I throw up sometimes just by feeling that way. Suicide shows how weak you are. "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" - Kelly Clarkson haha. It doesn't kill you but by killing yourself show how weak you are. You still have the time to change. Escape the darkness and go find someone that brings the light in you. Stop being the outcasts. It sucks being stuck here. Forever. ESCAPE while you still have the chance and time before it's too late. Death could happen anytime so why not? Enjoy life while you're still around.