Crossroads

All I Ever Needed

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•Adam's POV•

I screwed up. Big time. She probably hates me and never wants to see me again. I really felt something special for her..and now it is all lost. She never got to tell me if she felt something after the kiss. I guess I'll never know.

What I did..it was the worst thing someone can possibly do. I asked Behati if she would marry me, OUT OF NOWHERE, when I felt things for Christina. And I wasn't planning on doing that! I just did it because I was pissed with Christina. I was going to ask Behati to marry me far before I started The Voice. Before I met her. Christina. So I had the ring. And I just did it without thinking, I was mad.

Who does that?! If you're mad..just HIT A WALL!, don't propose to someone. I'm the biggest idiot on earth.

I've lost her. Nothing will be ever the same. The only thing that made me trully happy...has slipped through my fingers and I can't take it back.

•Christina's POV•
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"Baby.."

I whispered on his ear softly.

He wasn't waking up. So I just layed on his chest and started hearing his heartbeat. It was like music to me, hearing his heart and hearing him breathe. I looked up and kissed him softly on the lips to wake him up, like I always used to.

He rubbed his eyes and smiled when he saw me.

"I love when you do that"

He said grabbing my face with one hand and slightly removed the hair from my face and put it behind my ear.

He stared at my eyes, and I felt my heart jump, he didn't say anything, he was just looking at me without saying a word.

"What?"

I laughed.

"You're so beautiful..."

He whispered.

I looked down and a tear fell from my cheek.

"Why are you crying?"

He asked wipping away my tear with his finger.

"I..I've lied to you"

"What?"

He asked.

"Matty I lied to you, and I did the most horrible thing. And I regret it with my life because..you mean everything to me baby..I..I'm sorry "

I started crying and I could see the hurt in his eyes. He looked down and placed his hands on his forehead. He knew what I was talking about.

Tears started filling his eyes and he stood up from the bed with his hands still on his head.

"Did you..sleep with him?"

He said looking at the floor. His voice sounded so weak. He made a fist with his hands and put it inside his mouth.

I started crying harder.

"Noo! I left running..I made the worst mistake someone could ever make but I came back here..to you"

I got up from bed and walked to him..I placed my hands on his chest.

"Don't"

He said walking away from me, the tears were falling from his eyes and I couldn't look him in the eye, it made me feel like I was going to die everytime I saw his eyes filled with pain.

"Matty..I..I'm so sorry..I never meant to cause you..this pain. You know I love you with all my heart. You're everything I've ever needed..you came to me at a time when I was lost. I would be lost without you baby"

I couldn't even talk. My voice broke when I said that last thing.

"If you loved me..why did you do it?"

He whispered and looked up at me.

"I don't know..I guess I'm that stupid"

I whispered.

He turned around so his back was now facing me.

"Was it something I did?..Am I not enough? Did I hurt you in any way? Cause I can't figure it out"

He whispered.

"What?! Baby..you didn't do anything wrong..don't you dare to blame yourself. I would never forgive myself.
I want to spend the rest of my life next to you..cause I can't imagine a life without.."

I stopped to breathe cause I couldn't talk while crying.

I got closer to him and hugged him from behind making him turn around.

"Without these eyes.."

I caressed his face with my thumbs as I wipped away his tears.

"I love you Matty..I'm..so..so..sorry"

I looked into his red eyes.

"So am I"

He whispered and then grabbed his car keys and left. He left me standing there with my heart at my throat. He just left.

I've never felt so empty in my life. The moment he pushed me away..I knew that I had hurt him like never before. He never would have walked away from me like that. He's the one who tells me that everything is going to be okay. Now I have no one to tell me that.
He's gone.
And a piece of myself is gone with him.