Bella’s point of view:
It’s been a few weeks since our semi-fight and my emo out burst, but Jasper and I were doing really well. It was close to Christmas now and I was searching for the best gift for my love. He swore to me that he had everything he wanted, but somehow I really doubted it. We were having another one of our quiet nights, cuddling in my bed talking when I decided to ask something that had been on my mind lately. “Jasper, do you want kids?”
He stopped mid-stroke on my arm and then started up again when he started to talk. “Bella?”
“I don’t mean specifically with me. Just in general, do you ever want kids?”
“Yes, I wish for kids. I’ve only just started wishing for them when I started dating you, but I don’t think it is possible. You know, with me being dead and stuff.” He sighed. “But if I could have kids, I’d only want to have them with you.” He seemed sad after that conversation.
As the days passed, I noticed that Jasper would get a faraway look in his eyes every now and then and he’d look at me with wistful eyes, but then they would harden and he’d shake his head. I knew what he was thinking without even reading his minds. He was wishing for a baby and if I was honest, I really wanted to give him one.
We were far in our relationship. I knew I’d love him forever. I knew we’d end up being together forever. There was only one thing I wanted before my forever and that was a little baby. It didn’t matter if it was a boy or a girl, just to have a little baby would complete my life.
Thinking about everything Jasper and I had been through and what we’d been talking about lately. I knew he was very old fashioned, but our relationship was very ‘now’ and I started to make a plan in my head.
“Bella, honey,” I heard Jasper behind me while I was cooking dinner.
“Yes baby?”
“Do you think, maybe, we could, uhm,” he struggled and looked away and I noticed the look he gets when he blushes. “Well, you see, I was wondering if maybe, we could have a romantic night since Charlie is at Sue’s for the night and we have the house to ourselves once he leaves.” He was so nervous.
“Well, honey, I think I’d like that very much.” I kissed right under his ear and felt him shudder. Once Charlie was fed and off for Sue’s house, Jasper wrapped me in his arms and took me to my room. There were candles lit and our favorite music playing, which just happened to be Jasper playing guitar.
He set a trail of cool kisses down my neck while I traced his scares with my finger tips. I knew he was still self-conscious about them so when he finished his trail of kisses on my neck, I set out on my favorite mission. Making Jasper lay back on my bed, I took it upon myself to kiss ever one of his scars and occasionally trace my tongue over it. Jasper would purr out of pleasure. “I love you.” I told him.
“I love you too, my beautiful Isabella.” I loved when Jasper said my full name. We spent our night showing each other just how much we loved one another while softly whispering it as well. It would be safe to say that every day that Charlie was out of the house, Jasper and I were completely devoted to each other.
Yeah, we still went to school, but break started two days ago. I had been feeling sick lately and Jasper decided I really needed to see a doctor because he was worried when the sickness didn’t go away. Finally, I gave in and went to see Carlisle after a shift at work. Jasper told me he would cook dinner and take care of the house so I could go. Carlisle, luckily, wasn’t busy and saw me right away. “What seems to be the problem, Bella?”
I sat there on the table. “Well, I’ve been sick lately. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me. I throw up in the morning and usually around weird smelling food. I have to pee a lot lately, too. I’m tired during the day and find myself taking naps almost every afternoon.” I shrugged.
