The driver, The Girlfriend and Me

Scan no1

The time had come. I was twelve weeks pregnant. I was pregnant enough to have the first scan. I woke up in nicos bed at his house. That's when I remembered that I was staying there for a while.

He was already awake and on his phone.

"Morning soon to be mummy! Do you know what day it is?"

"First scan day! I'm so nervous"

"Why? You don't have to be! I'll be here with you!"

"Obviously, I've never had to do this before. What if it's not healthy or, or it's not growing right?"

"Sophie, you'll be fine, I will sit next to you, hold your hand and do everything I can for this child"

"Oh Nico! I..."

I wanted to tell him I loved him. I knew it probably wasn't a good idea.

"I love you" he said for me.

"I love you too"

We got up, each had a shower and got dressed.

"My pilot is taking us over to England for it" Nico said.

"Wow, posh boy" I teased.

"Bow down bitches"

I laughed and got into the plane.

***
"Sophie Barker please"

I squeezed Nicos hand and went in with him.

"Great to see you again Sophie" Dr Harlan smiled.

"Great to see you too Dr Harlan! This is the father ni..."

"Nico Hulkenberg?! Wow! You're one lucky girl!"

"Oh don't I know it!"

"So I'm just going to perform the twelve week scan on you today! I'm just going to see if the baby is growing properly and is healthy"

"Okay!"

"So if you just want to lie down on the bed, I'll get you sorted!"

"It's going to be okay" Nico said.

"It is?"

"Yes! I'm here by your side! I won't let anything happen to you. You and the baby"

I kissed his cheek just as Dr Harlan came back through with the equipment.

"So you seem to have a pretty standard baby bump. How bad is the morning sickness?"

"It's eased off now but it was most mornings before"

"And have you experienced any shooting or stabbing pains?"

"A few times"

"Ah right. You're just stressed! You being stressed makes the baby stressed! Just relax whenever you can, maybe check out a spa or even go on holiday"

"There's only 1 spa I want to go to! The track!"

"So this is just like cold jelly, I'm just going to put this on your stomach and rub it around with the camera"

I jumped at the shock of how cold it was.

"Are you okay?" Nico asked me.

"I'll be okay Nico. Just a little cold!"

I held his hand as we both watched the screen.

"That's our child" I said.

"We...we created that" Nico said, looking lost for words.

"Right! I'm done! Shall I print off the photos for you?"

"Yes please!"

We took the photos and went to the plane.

Nico was scarily quiet the whole way back.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

"Just looking at those photos. It brings back memories of when Laura was..." A tear spilled down his cheek. I wiped it away with my finger.

"It's okay Nico. You're getting over a death. It's okay"

"It's not okay. I shouldn't be piling the pressure onto you. It will only make you more stressed"

"It won't. I promise. Nico, I'm here for you"

He kissed me then kissed my ever growing baby bump.

***

When we got back to the house we got a shock. We didn't expect this at all.

"Hey Nico baby! Oh, are you hanging around with the slut again?"

"Laura? What are you doing here?"

"Baby, I think you're forgetting I still have a key!"

"We're done though"

"Are we now?" He said, dragging him into the house and shutting the door on me.

"Sophie! It's unlocked!" Nico yelled as I walked in. He pushed her away as she tried to kiss him.

"Nico baby, I want you back"

"I hate to break it to you, but I don't want you back"

She slapped him.

"What will it take?!" She hissed.

"Nothing"

"Sophie?"

"Yes Laura?"

"Can we have a little chat?"

"As long as Nico is with us then yes"

"Nope. He can't be with us"

"Then we don't chat"

She grabbed my arm and dragged me to another room.

"I need you to know something"

"What?"

"You know how I had a miscarriage?"

"Yes"

"I can't have kids now and I still want Nicos child"

"But you can't have his child"

"I can. When your baby is born, I want you to put my name on the papers"

"Why would I do that"

"Because I want his child and the only way to get it is via you"

"But I won't hand over my child. Why would I do that?"

"Because you love Nico"

"Yes of course I love Nico"

"Then you'll want me to take your child for you. You've got a busy career so I would be a better mother"

"Well, I will never hand over my child. I will never let go of it"

She slapped me before I screamed. Nico came running.

"Laura?! What are you doing?!"

"Nothing baby" she said, putting her hand on his chest before dragging him upstairs. She threw my suitcase down the stairs, ushered me outside then threw my bag on the kerb. She made sure to lock the door.

So there I was. In the middle of Germany. Sat on the kerb, with nowhere to go.