Love Him...Not

Hidden Meaning

Then, Shine feel something wet on her cheeks. Yuzuru free her lips and Shine slowly open her eyes and she see tears are flowing from his eyes...he's crying...Yuzuru is crying.

"Why are you crying?" Shine asked herself as she looked at him.

Yuzuru still hold Shine's face with his trembling hands.

"I am afraid that I might lost you... again" He said.

"Lost me again?" Shine confusedly asked in her mind.

As if Yuzuru can hear the question in Shine's head, he kiss her again. The heaviness of his emotion is felt by Shine thru his kiss,that he's missing her so much. Yuzuru free Shine's lips again.

"don't leave me again please...please" He pleaded while his tears keep flowing from his eyes.

Shine wipe his tears. She looked at him with mixed emotions; happiness, sadness, surprise, overwhelm, confuse and every emotion that moment can offer.

"why is he begging?" Shine confusedly asked herself as she look at him with sympathy.

Shine then cupped his wet face with her cold and quivering hands.

"I'll never leave you. I promise" she assured him.

Yuzuru smile.

Shine can see that Yuzuru is please to hear her words. He kiss her one more time and then he hug her tightly.

....

Yuzuru and Shine are walking back to Shine's house, when Shine is lost in her mind. She keep thinking about the things that happened earlier; about his word...Again.

Yuzuru stop her from walking.

"Is something bothering you?" Yuzuru curiously asked while looking at Shine.

"Huh?...nothing" Shine lied while she shake her head and they continue to walk again.

While they are walking again, Shine is still silent. Yuzuru stop from walking again and turn Shine to face him.

"It's not nothing! Tell me, what it is?" He insist.

"Ahm...why did you say 'Again' several times? just wondering if you do know me from before?" Shine groped to tell him her thoughts.

Yuzuru frown and can't answer for awhile —he seem to be planning what to say to her.

"Shine, I just really miss you when I am in Japan and I feel like I am losing you" Yuzuru answer sincerely with a smile —his genuinely happy smile, her favorite smile of him.

"But it's not me who leave...it's you!" Shine said in a low voice .

"I know but..." Yuzuru said and Shine can clearly see the hesitation in his face.

Yuzuru then shake his head as if erasing something in his head. Then he looked directly at Shine's eyes.

"Let's just not talk about this now; you are probably tired and I need to rest too. We'll talk about this some other time, I promise"Yuzuru said.

Shine looked at him and nod —Shine understand that Yuzuru is not ready to answer her yet.

Yuzuru then hold Shine's hand and they walk again.

....

Shine and Yuzuru enter the house and they saw Allen and Dad, talking seriously in the living room. Shine can see that they are a little startled upon her and Yuzuru's sudden appearance.

"Good evening" Yuzuru politely greet them and he bow his head.

"Good evening too Yuzuru" Dad greets him. Allen just slightly tilt his head to acknowledge his presence.