Previously:
My thoughts were everywhere and I could feel myself get really angry, over everything I guess. I couldn't get a grip over it all. Suddenly poof and I was taller, I looked around me since I could hear a lot better. Hmm. I looked down at myself and yelped. What the fuck..... Already. !! And why can't I hear anyone else? Like the others could..?? Was I so angry at them that I didn't join the pack??
I felt like panicking what on earth was going on?
I needed help! I ran to the house and saw Edward outside with a tall blond man and Jasper, they were laughing. He looked a lot like Jasper and yet not. He looked FINE. ;)
Edward laughed and looked over at me. But jumped back in surprise. I whimpered and the hunk and Jasper turned around. When I looked into he hunks eyes, everything changed for me. He was the one. But how? He's a vampire. I don't get it...
I guess I had changed back and curled myself together.
I heard my name being called... But I was to confused to respond.. Till I felt to soothing arms hold me...
"Ya alright darlin', I've got ya" it made me smile. I sighed and snuggled closer, and felt him sigh and kiss the top of my head... But I was still so so confused.......
Now:
It has been 5 hours since it happened, and I just don't know what to make of it. My mind has just gone into itself somehow.
Rose had given me my baby girl to see if it would get me better. It did but she was the only one that could reach me as of yet.
I was just holding her though. But she was such a good girl, that she just put her hand on my cheek and laid there while we looked into each others eyes.
I can't phantom that my girl is the first of her kind to be 3 things at once.
Carlisle had taken a test on her, just to make sure that her blood could co-exist with each other, when she was born. And it even looked like it had a better strength that we did with our DNA/venom. So she would be able to handle herself. I was glad about that.
She had the hardened skin like them but the warmth like us, and she apparently had the power to make you relax and to be different kinds of animals, not just a wolf. Which frightened me like hell when it first happened 1 week ago.
We had been sitting in the garden on a blanket playing with bubbles and yarn (I know yarn why on earth would you play with that, well she apparently thought it was fun to role around and such) I still didn't get it, but to my chock suddenly instead of my sweet baby girl, was a tiny kitten, playing with the yarn like it was a gods gift from heaven. I froze and Edward and Carlisle and Jasper came running out to us. Well lets just say that they were to frozen for a bit. Edward the first one to get back to normal smiled hugely and sat down next to me, and petted her and said her name, and that made me get myself back together and look at the kitten that was ones my little girl. I was scared that it may be permanent when Edward said no to me, that it was a thing she had told her self could be fun and then she was one. He asked her if she could be anything else and bam she was a tiny wolf, and 2 minutes after she was a bunny. So that day was a frightening one but also the day my baby found out a lot of ways to have fun. The good part though, she still smelt like her so I would always be able to find her.
We found out to days later when she was a bunny again that if I couldn't see her, then I could feel our bond and find her that way. It made me feel more calm about everything. We guessed that the size of the animal would be of what she waned but also her age, so she could't be big is she was still a baby.
2 days after that we dicovered her other gift. And we have been wondering since if she would show more as she grows, since the norm is only one gift.
I had also been thinking theese last couple of hours, with the matters of Embry.
- I knew that he couldn't help it and that I shouldn't blame him for it, but she was just my baby. Seth had told me what it felt like for him, and that the bond was like a brother and protector, it wasn't like Sam's. And that made me relax a bit.
But I also knew that I would be extreamly mean and coldhearted if I made him stay away. But I had to have rules made. So I had come up with a couple.
1: She is my baby. Its okay for him to see her, but he can't make choices for her. make suggestions in a situation, okay, but no more....
2: I had to have 2 days where he weren't here. So I could have time with her myself. I knew It would be hard, especially after I imprinted on Peter. But he had to understand that I waned some normalcy to. And waned time with her myself. He could be here the other 5 days.
3: He couldn't leave here with her, as long as she was still a baby.
4: If he waned he could join my own pack, since Carlisle said I was my own Alpha. Weird I know, but apparently I was that strong. I could ask Leah and Seth to since I knew how Le-Le felt being with Sam's Pack. But yea!!!
But that was what I had so far.
And he would come over tomorrow so I could talk to him then.
Now I just had to figure out how the hell I imprinted on a vampire. Don't get me wrong I like them, but We were always told that it would be the best one to be able to get the best wolfs out of it.
- Would that mean that I would be able to have kids anyway, since I would stop aging because of being a wolf, and all that.?
- Would he be able to give me more kids?
- And would they be like Elowa? Or more wolf since I had shifted?
- And what did this all mean to him? Did he even want me? I could feel him close by, but did that mean that he waned to be here? Did he want to be a family with me? Did he even know what happened out there? Had they told him?
God it felt like I was going insane, but then all I felt was calm, thanks to Jasper and my baby girl.
Everything would get better, I knew they would.
I smiled at her and looked up at everyone. I grinned at them and hugged her to me again.
It would all work out!!!
