Yearn for You [poems]

Why? All I want is you.

Why do you do this to me?

Why do you ignore me for the longest time and then you come back all flirty again?

Why do you do that?

Why?

You come back with a gentle compliment.

All I want is you.

All I want is you so fucking much it hurts.

I wish I held your hand when the guy was staring at us.

I wish I grabbed it and never let it go.

I know I did hold it in front of those girls as you skateboarded across Target.

God, we were having such a crazy night.

You made me smile.

You changed me.

I felt infinite.

The night of the movies,

it was cold,

and I loved that we cuddled in the backseat.

You held my hand all through Safe Haven

even when they stared at us.

I laughed at your stupidity.

I joined in on your dancing.

All I want is you in my room again.

Us, on the floor, playing Uno, once more.

Those were the days.

They were absolutely the best.

I miss them.

I miss your voice.

I miss your hugs.

I miss the way your hair felt as I played with it.

I miss your soft touch.

I miss you singing for me.

Sometimes when I'm upset over something,

I sit on the floor of my room and play the mixed tape you gave me.

You did promise it would cheer me up for any situations.

I miss you in those sweaters and cardigans that you wore just for me.

I absolutely miss it all.

I want it back.

I want the late night phone calls about complete nothing.

Especially when you asked me how I was doing,

and I told you that I was okay even though I was crying.

You called me minutes later just to talk about funny stuff on Tumblr.

You cheered me up when i didn't want to be.

You understood me.

You were everything.

..Now you're my nothing..

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Oh god, i did not mean to write this out, but it felt great to finally write it, and now I'm crying. This was too much. I don't know why i Posted it. it's still so raw even if it has been months.