Mother fvcking feels

Worth It (part 1)

Mirror Mirror, On The Wall

OMG GUYS I WAS MAD ASF LAST NIGHT. i started writing this amazing imagine, (not BRAGGING I'm just really proud of myself) and THEN all OF a sudden, wattpad crashed!!! I was like omfg r u F-ing kidding??? I had started at 11 and it was 1:45 am, and i had about 1,876 wordsssssss.......ugh, but nonetheless here it is in your hands, all in all, 9 hours spent on this story. Its long so its in 2 parts hope you're okay with that. I hope you enjoy!!

Pairing: Ashley x Calum (you can replace Ashley with Y/N i just used a random name since this is a sensitive topic)

Summary: you find peace and security in calum ; he helps you love yourself.

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"Where shall we go next?" Bella asked walking from the register. I shrugged.
"I dunno you choose." i honestly didn't care. So far i had gotten perfumes, jewelry, and makeup. So, there was nothing else i really wanted, or needed. Bella smiles deviously at me, grabbing my hand and pulling me in the direction of V.S.

As soon as we walk in, i feel a thick tension around me. I always felt this when i went into this store. I dunno why, but i just do.
"Really? Victoria Secret?"
"Yass gurl, you know this is my store."

The only time i really did go into V.S. is when i was with Bella. And that was because this was her favorite store, and she is the queen of cute underwear. Me on the other hand, i liked cute underwear/lingerie, don't get me wrong, i mean, who doesn't, but i never really got them. I didn't really have a reason to.
1. I just moved out from my moms house about 6 months ago, and back then i didn't want them to see it in the laundry,
2. i don't really think about getting cute underwear,
3.Me and Calum were waiting until marriage, and
4. i wasn't exactly the most confident person. So all in all, it was all new and awkward to me.

You follow her over to the drawers and round tables, and look for underwear, with no intention of really buying underwear. You watch her and the sets she's picking up. She's got matching, and mis-matching sets. Some are super cute, and some are really sexy..like so sexy its making me uncomfortable.

But after a while of looking you actually find a really cute pair of underwear. You yourself have some that are cute, and that are really adorable, and on the other hand you have this pair that's slightly sexy, with a hint of edge. After Bella's finished looking you follow her into the back where the dressing rooms are. Noticing that there is only one available, you walk into one with Bella, sitting down as she models them for you. You set your bags on the ground and sit in front of her as she begins to strip. You watch the way your hair falls in the way of her face. She is utterly beautiful. She's literally the definition of perfect.

"Do i make you wanna turn lesbian yet, sugar pop" Bella says shooting fake guns at me and winking. I laugh at her silliness and playfully kick her leg.
"Hell yeah. You're beyond perfect"
"Oh puh-leese yeah right"
"I'm serious! I could only dream to look like you. Geez, what does a girl have to do to look hot?"
"Mama and papa, yo!.MAYBE SHE'S BORN WITH IT, MAYBE ITS MAYBELLINE". I laugh harder that i should and take a deep breath
"Bella! Stfu!!!"
"You're still laughing tho" she smiles checking herself out in the mirror. She's so pretty though. Her thighs are perfectly sized, her butt is lifted and round, and her boobs are big and perky. She's got it all going for her.

Just as i think that she finishes.
"I know how you are about people watching you change, and seeing your shy ass naked body so, I'll be outside the door" she says giggling. She's right though, I'm overly shy...and i can't help it.

I take off my clothes and try on the first pair, looking up slowly at my refection.
"Oh my god..." stare at myself in silence, with wide eyes. I look horrible. My stomach isn't flat, my thighs are bigger, my butt is bigger, and you would think my boobs would be but they're not. Of course. I can't believe i look like this...Calum doesn't deserve this, he deserves so much better... like Bella.

"How's it going, sexy?" i hear Bella call out. My hands fly over your mouth and i sob quietly, making sure she doesn't hear. I hype up my voice and wipe your tears.
"Hey, yeah I'm awesome." i hear a whispered 'yay' from outside my door and take off the underwear as quick as i can, instantly feeling guilty i even thought i could try it on. I don't even bother to try on my second pick, and gather my clothes together. I pick up my bags and walk to the mirror making sure i don't look like a car wreck in a thunderstorm.

I walk out and link arms with Bella and skip to the register as i hear her giggle.
That's one thing i like about myself, if anything at all. I hide my feelings really well. Glad i know how to. Bella looks at my hands and frowns.
"Babe, where's your panties?"
"Eh, i didn't really want them".
"But they were so cute!!!"
"Bella i don't need them"
"Fine. Wait here" i sighed knowing she was gonna come back with them in her hand. I wait around and sure enough, here she comes. She pays for them and hers, and we walk out the store. She hands me the bag and smiles with a grin that says "too bad bitch" and sticks her tongue out at me when she sees my face of no emotion.
"Bella...thanks" you laugh giving up.
"You are very welcome madame."

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Heyyy wassup y'aaaalll lol, i hope you enjoyed, maybe I'll see you on part 2?