Silent Diaries: Book 2

Enrty 3 -Break down

Loren

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Entry 3

7/28/2022

Dear Diary.

How much can the average woman take before she breaks? How many times can she get cut before she bleeds to death? How hot does she have to get before she bursts into a field of flames? How many tears does she have to cry before she runs out? How many pain can the average woman take in before she gives up?

I'm the average woman. Madly in love with the person who has cost me the most emotional pain.
I am the average woman who keeps running back to the one person who keeps pushing me away.
Why do I have to be average, being average only means it is a matter of time before shit goes down hill, before I break down, before I give up because it got to hard.

Now is that time.

Secret I can't take it anymore, I might fucking snap! I might kill her, I might kill them both.
I'm lossing myself in the whole situation. I have never pretended so much in my life, pretending to be okay with everything, pretending to not have anymore feelings, pretending to be happy for them. I have pretened so much that I don't know what I really want. I'm done pretending.

I'm done!

~ Loren.