Last Seen In San Francisco (Tony Perry)

• Like A Blade You Stain •

AN// guys, when I don't update for a while (like, over 5 days or more?) there will always be a reason on my page for it. Just follow me to see the updates (or embarrassing stories I post) or you can just check my page whenever there hasn't been an update for a while and I would've wrote a reason. Okay, that's all- Just remember that. Love you Bae's.

{ t h i r t y t h r e e }

Mental breakdown currently in progress. How does one reply to that? He continued to stare at me cluelessly. Maybe he doesn't know he said it? Or maybe he's just freaking out internally like I am?

It could be possible, we're both keeping straight faces.

"Right. Let's work."

Right? That's the signal my brain sent to my mouth? Not 'oh, I missed you too' or something witty and sarcastic instead? What is wrong with my body signals as of lately?

His face went blank as he stood up and looked at me for a few more seconds before walking into the studio without another word.

I looked through the window to see him setting up his guitar, his emotionless face back on as he did. Shit, I've hurt his feelings.

Of course you fucking hurt his feelings you idiot, I told myself, having an internal battle. It's like someone telling you that they love you and you replying with 'thanks.'

"Lydia?" Alexis asked me and I snapped my head up towards her. "Go in then, Tony's waiting."

"Oh," I automatically said in reply. "I will." I added one, cursing my mouth again for speaking without me even realising. That's going to get me into trouble, or a really embarrassing situation one day. I can just feel it.

I looked through the window again, seeing Tony pick at the strings of the now set up guitar. Wow, either he set that up really fast (with the amp too) or I was lost in my own thoughts for a long time.

Know me it was probably the latter.

I walked into the recording room, feeling the tension already hit me like a brick wall as I closed the door behind me. I think he may have taken note of our earlier conversation.

I missed you.

"So... Vic and I wrote this..." I started and just acted like nothing had even happened.

He seemed to go along with it and we started to write the music, occasionally talking to make it less awkward and making stupid jokes that were barely even funny but seemed to ease the tension.

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"Like just, ripping the plaster off? Just like that?" Alexis asked me, putting her head back in the apartment as she dangled out of the window for her cigarette.

She put her head back out as she finished talking. "I missed you." I heard her imitate Tony after a few seconds with an added laugh at the end. "Classic."

"It wasn't even a plaster, more like a bomb." I told her in a louder voice than usual. The street is below us so it's really loud when we sit on the window sill. I'm staying on the sofa with Madison though.

We're watching Despicable me.

Again. It's been her favourite movie since it came out, she didn't enjoy the second one half as much though. It's just this one that we have to watch at least once a month because of how much she enjoys it.

"So he misses you," she dismissed waving her arms about as she came back into the apartment.

"Did you just drop you cigarette into the street?" I asked her, running over to the window after seeing something drop from next to her.

"Yeah, why?" She asked, going to sit next to Maddie. The sounds of the the minions travelled around the room but we were still able to hear each other.

"Alexis!" I scolded her, leaning over the window sill to see if anybody was walking on the sidewalk. "People walk down there!" Luckily, I couldn't see anybody around so this time we don't have a law suit on our hands. Who knows what would happen if she burnt someone with a falling cigarette.

"They'll be fine." She dismissed again, being nonchalant about everything. She intently watched the TV as I closed the window and walked back into the aparment. "Anyway, so he misses you, it's not a big deal."

"It is!" I argued. "Missing someone means that you want them around more because you miss them being around!"

"Then why don't you just go back out with him or something Lydia!" I was taken aback as she shouted at me. Madison startled, looked over to Alexis as well but turned back to the TV quickly and stared at it.

I could tell she didn't like it when we argued so I didn't bother shouting back even though I wanted to. I still want to know why she's shouting though.

"What?" I asked her in my usual tone. Even to my own ears I sounded a little angry though. "What's your problem?"

"I have a problem?" She laughed, still shouting and I could see Maddie shy away from her. "You're the one that's trying to date two people at once."

"Oh my, I kissed Mike. Should I date him? Oh wow, Tony misses me. Maybe him? Who knows." She tried to imitate me with a high squeaky voice. "Grow up and stop being stupid!" I stood still, watching her get angrier as I got more shocked at her words.

"They're both assholes anyway! Why would you kiss a guy that physically beat you when he first met you, and why, tell me because I don't understand, why would you want to date someone who cheated on you, and with his best friends sister no less!"

She turned back around, eyes fully on the TV and I sank away into my room, feeling her anger hit me over and over again.