Last Seen In San Francisco (Tony Perry)

• Just Hold My Hand And Jump •

AN// Lol, not even sorry. This is the final chapter. Of course there will be a bonus chapter coming too and then my long ass authors note but here ya go. Tell me what you thought (of the whole series because this is officially the last book of it; no more.) I love you guys x 

{ f o r t y n i n e  - f i n a l }

I woke up to Tony lightly shaking my shoulder, wondering how the hell he got into my apartment and why he was waking me up at this ungodly hour. 8am. 

"Alexis let in," Tony started as I blinked my eyes open. That explained one of my questions then. "I also brought Maddie back and because it's Saturday I thought we could go out somewhere. The three of us, you know?" I blinked at him. 

"I didn't get any of that." I replied, sleep lacing my voice and making it deeper. I stretched my arms above my head, yawning slightly and watching Tony sit down at the edge of my bed and begin to smooth down the comforter. "So...?" I asked him, leaning up on my elbows to keep eye contact with him. 

"Last night- I saw your interview by the way, it was kind of hilarious how gobsmacked everyone was. Anyway, I also saw how everyone was looking at you, like they were in awe that you were even in the room and it made me think, you know? Just... how great you really are, and how I took you for granted and stuff." 

"What is this?" I asked. Was he trying to do some sort of love confession right now? At eight in the morning? Couldn't he have waited till lunch?

"Anyway, I was sitting with Madison as I watched in and just thinking- you named our daughter and you spent the last six years of your life prioritizing her because I was, well, an asshole. I love her name, is the point I'm trying to make-" Tony rambled. 

"That's your point? You love your daughters name?" I asked. 

"No- no, the point is... I don't know. the point is you're just, really, really great and I didn't deserve you seven years ago and I don't deserve you now. I knew it, seven years ago, I took one look at you- albeit tied up on our sofa and I just wanted to talk to you and untie you. My body was just screaming at me to help this pretty girl and then we started talking, and then we started kissing and it was unbelievable because this girl who was so out of my league was actually into me." I kept my mouth shut as Tony looked up at me for the first time in his speech, not knowing what to say. 

"Everyone else knew you were too good for me, just some retired guitarist who lived with his struggling band mates. You were Lydia Starr, a gorgeous rich girl who was a fucking pop star and I'm just Tony Perry; that guy in the emo band. That four months apart, you probably think I forgot about you- fuck no. Chloe was my rebound, my distraction so to say and even Jaime probably knew that. They could all see how much it hurt me when we had to give you back-"

"Where are you going with this?" I whispered quietly. Tony kept his eyes on the ripped knees of his jeans, thumb brushing over the material.

"And when we got back together, and you told me you loved me- oh my god. You know when I bought the engagement ring? The day after you moved back in- Vic helped me pick it out. Promised he wouldn't tell you and that was it. Where do you think the plan to break up Chloe and I came from? Vic knew I was really gone for you but I couldn't break things off with Chloe because of my friendship with Jaime. You were always out of my league but I tried so hard to get you anyway." 

My mouth would've been on the floor if I wasn't lying down. Where was this coming from?

"I didn't even think before asking you to marry me, it was just something I wanted to do and the signing with Fearless gave me the confidence so... I went for it and it was the best decision of my life. Being engaged to you, being with you- that was my legacy or something. That was- the time I spent with you, that was the time of my life. You getting pregnant? Madison? She's my legacy now too." 

"Tone..."

"So why did I fuck it up?" Tony scolded himself, putting his head in his hands before dropping the grip and looking up at me again. "Why would I get cocky and forget that you were the best thing that had ever happened to me? Why would I hide you, and why the fuck would I treat you like shit? Because of a fucking record deal? Was I out of my mind?!" Tony stood up, beginning to pace the room and my eyes followed his every move, sticking to him like glue.

"I loved you, I love you and I will love you. There is no way I can fall out of love with you. That's the point of what I'm saying. You are the only other person that knows everything that has gone on with us, the sneaking around, the pining, the dreams, everything. You are my perfect woman; how can I not love you? You gave birth to my child and you still look like the only person I will ever want to marry." 

"Oh my god." I whispered, having nothing else to say. 

"I'm not saying you need to love me back, or even like me, because I know I screwed everything up between us, and I know you'll always be out of my league. I'm just... I'm saying I know what I lost. You are so amazing." Tony sighed and I giggled slightly. 

"That whole speech came from you watching an interview I did?" 

"All of this came from the past eight years of my life. I lost you, but I want you back, of course I do. So... go out to dinner with me today? Me, you and Madison. I'm not saying lets get engaged, or be my girlfriend, I'm just saying that if you give me the chance I can show you that the boy who fell in love with you eight years ago is still here. The romance in me is still here. I know the mistakes I've made and I will never make them again, so go to dinner with me and let me prove myself to you. I need you in my life, Lydia. I always have." 

I couldn't control my bodily functions as a tear rolled down my cheek. Tony was still staring at me, his eyes piercing into mine as he awaited my reply. I wiped the tear away, looking at him with a lobsided smile. 

"One chance, that's all I'm giving you." I finally replied. He grinned, running across my room and pulling me into a hug; not a kiss or some big romantic gesture, just a simple hug, and that was perfect. 

"One chance is all I need." Tony whispered. "I love you, Lydia." 

The End. 

AN// BOOM BITCH! WOO! Okay I'm a little excited because I'm very emotional right now but hold tight for the Bonus Chapter and yeah, the authors note too (because I'll have a lot of important things to say.) Love, Em. x