Last Seen In San Francisco (Tony Perry)

• It Feels Just Like A Hole Inside My Chest •

AN// it's short but I have a really important exam Thursday and I am freaking the fuck out.

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"Holy fuck." Vic let out, and everyone in the room turned to him. I tried to send him the best pleading look I could. Please don't tell him. This will be so much easier if I'm just 'Levi' and not 'Tonys ex-fiancée.'

"What?" Jaime stupidly replied, looking worriedly at Vic. I found myself smiling. I think, after all these years, I've actually missed these people.

Yes, they were assholes. Complete fucking dicks at some points, but at one time in my life, they were all I had, they were family. My smile dropped almost instantly as the last memories I had with them flushed my mind. I shook the thoughts off and just sighed.

I may as well just get this over with.

"So let's keep this strictly business. I'm going to sort some things out, just go over what you want to do with my assistant- Alexis." I walked over to her, and she gave me a big smile and a nod. I know that's her way of letting me know that she agrees with the way I've decided to deal with this.

I'm lucky that I've found myself a friend who'll always have my back, even when I do stupid things like this. Trust me, I knew using another fake name wouldn't get me anywhere good, but I'd like to live in my fairytale land where everything is okay, and Tony doesn't exist in my life anymore.

I heard Alexis talking over details with the band as I continued to walk out.

My mind is working overdrive. I don't even know where the name Levi Jones came from, it's just generic, and it's the first thing that popped into my head. In fact, I think it's because of the Alex drama. Seeing the band brought all the memories back, not just the PTV ones.

Levi sounds a lot like Lexi.

I didn't keep in contact with any of them. I wanted to, I really did, but I didn't want to be traceable. I guess that went down the drain.

I miss Alex and Jack especially. Sometimes I find myself just sitting around and thinking about them- mostly wondering if they're together. Would they be public? Are they adopting a kid? Okay, maybe that's a little far fetched but I can't help but be curious. I can't bring myself to research them though, I know I'll get upset.

The one person I almost called though, was Becca. It was exactly two months after I had left, and I was homesick. Becca was my rock before we started touring, she was my best friend, and the person I could tell everything too. It was obvious we'd drifted a little on tour, with bad schedule's and my moods all the time because of Tony's absence. Yet, even then, I could still rely on her. I dialled her number, knowing it off by heart, and then I let my thumb hover over the green button.

I was a movement away from hearing her voice. I can remember it like it was yesterday. I started crying, and then Alexis came and hugged me. We weren't far into our friendship back then, but she was there for me.

God, that was so long ago.

I softly closed the door to my office behind me. So many memories still flooding my mind. Just seeing them all has brought so much back to me.

Seeing Tony.

It brought a whole burst of feelings back, because to this day, he is still the only man I have ever loved. I have to remember that I let my feelings bury themselves the day I walked away from that bus.

I have to remember that people change, and so have I.

Because the moment I walked away from that life 6 years ago, was the moment I stopped believing in love.

With that still fresh in my mind, I wiped my eyes and held my head up, and then I carried on as if nothing had even bothered me.