Last Seen In San Francisco (Tony Perry)

• You've Got A Lot To Say For The One Who Walked Away •

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"Lydia?" Tony managed to choke out first, after a few moments of awkward silence. How do I reply to that? Should I be a bitch about it or just...talk like I'm chatting with an old friend?

"Um, yeah?" I replied stupidly. My brain must think I'm going for the dumb 'pretend like we never knew each other' approach.

His mouth popped open and I could see his eyes running up and down my face and then my body. Again, I haven't changed that much since he last saw me; he should have fucking recognised me. Thinking about that made my hands curl into fists by my sides. He doesn't have the right to look over me like he is right now. He's the one that cheated, he's the one that broke up with me, he's the one that ignored me until I snapped, he's the one that drove me away.

He's the one who doesn't have the right to be looking at me right now.

As for the rest of Pierce The Veil, they have the right, I guess, but I'm sure they already know that I'm Lydia because as soon as they made it obvious. They were all avoiding eye contact with Tony, looking at the floor in guilt and fiddling with their fingers, even Mike surprisingly.

Mike definitely knows who you are Lydia. There's no doubt about that.

"Could we, like, talk?" He saw my dubious look and added "please?" I slowly nodded and lead him outside of my office, leaving Alexis with the rest of the boys. I leant against the wall again, and briefly remembered my encounter with Mike out here before I shook it out of my mind.

I have to deal with the problem at hand right now, I can think about everything else later.

"So talk." I said to Tony. I'm not starting this off, he wants to talk, he can. I actually took notice of his shy smile- which never used to be there when I was around. So he must not feel comfortable around me anymore. His hands fidgeted in front of him, showing me how nervous he is.

Everything has definitely changed between us now. I actually never expected to see him again.

"You've out on weight- oh shit, no, not like that. I mean- the baby, is it born? That's why you've...you know. It's in a good way, you look really good Lyd-" he blurted out, and it took me a few seconds just to process everything, but when I did, I almost blew up.

"It's been 6 years and the first thing you tell me is that I've put on weight. What the fuck, Tony!" I knew he probably didn't even mean it like that, he did mention something about the baby (it's weird to call Maddie that again) so he probably meant well. But to word it like that- you can't just say that to a female and not expect her to take it to heart. I looked down at my body self-consciously for a brief second before glaring back up at him.

"W-wait, shit Lydia, I mean, the baby that um..." He stuttered out, I heard a soft tap on my office door and I glanced at it. I would bet a month of my wages that Alexis is listening to us right now. Tony didn't hear it or he ignored it because he awkwardly continued "we made? Was it born?"

"If you're suggesting that I had an abortion, no I didn't. She's gorgeous too." I let go of the weight topic as soon as I saw his relieved face. I felt entitled to tell him a little bit more so I locked my fingers together and carried on "She's called Madison Grace, she's 6 years old. She has your eyes Tone."

He was silent was a good few seconds, and then he opened his mouth and shut it again with a sour look on his face.

"What?" I felt the need to ask.

"You always said...that I could, um, see her."

"No." I said immediately, sternly. I stepped away from the wall and closer to the door that I just know Lexis is listening behind right now. "No, not gunna happen Tony." I shook my head frantically.

"It's been 6 years! You can't do this now, okay!" I snapped when I saw his angry look. It softened but didn't go away.

"It wouldn't have been if you didn't run away and hide from everyone. We tried to contact you!" He argued back.

"Well if you wanted a kid so bad maybe you should have slept with a few more of your friends sisters." Shit, fuck, I didn't mean to say that. I can't believe I'm still not over that. Why would I even bring that back up. "Shit, Tone, I didn't mean that." I dismissed quickly.

"All I'm saying is that you didn't care when I was pregnant, why would you care when she was born. She's been fine without you Tony, please don't make me do this to her now." I kept my voice down this time, trying to keep my anger at bay, and it worked.

I studied Tony to see his stern look and hard eyes staring back at me. I've probably offended him.

"I want to see her Lydia, she's part of me." He said finally, shooting me a glare.