Queen of New York

Airplanes

You were crying at the airport when they finally closed the plane door.

I sat on the plane, music in my ears, ignoring anything the world had to say to me.

I couldn't believe what I just did. My friends were all planning to have this huge celebration after graduation, and I just left them. I graduated, got my bags, and took off.

I got multiple texts from my friends.

Con-Da-Bon: Julie. I miss you. Come back to me. 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

Troye Boye: Jules, why'd you have to leave us behind. We all miss you so much. It's just not the same here without you.

Jenny Henny: The apartment is a lot quieter without you. Your room is so empty now. 😭Miss you bestie.

Reni BB: WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I mean, I love you, but I can't let you gooooooooooooooo.

Keisha The Cool One: really woman you just had to leave wow okay I'm so sad now Michael won't leave us alone come back please.

Camille is basically me so yeah: Please. Come. Back. Help. Michael. Is. An. Emotional. Wreck.

Luke actually isn't a penguin: Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head. (I miss you, miss you, miss you.) 😢

Ashton Freaking Irwin: Julie why did you leave me. Now I don't have my Panda anymore. Plus no one will be my patient.

Cal-Puppy-Pal: JULLLIIIIAAAAAA COME BACL HERE NOW

The Good Twin Jack: Julie, Serenity is screaming your name throughout the apartment. She needs help.

Da Bae Mikey❤️🍆: Jewel please come back to me.

Da Bae Mikey❤️🍆: Julia I need you.

Da Bae Mikey❤️🍆: Julia.

Da Bae Mikey❤️🍆: Answer me please.

Da Bae Mikey❤️🍆: I love you.

I ignored all of them.

I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I couldn't tweet, I couldn't vlog, I couldn't text, I couldn't talk.

I was just an object filling up empty space.

I served no purpose.

I knew when I got back to New York everything would be different.

I'd be recognized everywhere.

My friends would either hate me or see me as some celebrity.

I'd have no one to collab with.

I'd have no Michael.

Wherever You Are by 5 Seconds of Summer started playing on my phone.

For a while we pretended that we never had to end it, but we knew we had to say goodbye.

I played it off like I'd never had to leave Michael, but secretly I knew. I knew.

You were crying at the airport when they finally closed the plane door. I could barely hold it all inside.

I'm sure Michael was crying. I was sure I wanted to, but I wasn't.

It pained me how perfectly the song fit to the situation. And I hated it.

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I walked into my old room. 27 unread texts. 16 missed calls. 15 voicemails. All from Mikey.

I wish I didn't have to be gone, maybe you already moved on. But the truth is I don't wanna know.

What if he's already found someone else. What if he's fallen in love with someone new. Someone better. Someone that isn't me.

Nothing lasts forever. Nothing stays the same.

We're Michael and I over? Was there any point in staying together?

I don't know.

A/N: Well, this is a depressing way to start off the story. Anyway, I hope you enjoy Queen of New York!