Queen of New York

Something's Wrong With Me

Julie's POV

My name's Blurryface and I care what you think
Wish we could turn back time to the good old days

Finn's been at my house for the past week.

He won't leave. He just kind of hangs around.

The problem is, I don't have a problem with it. I kind of enjoy having him around. He's just been here, keeping me company. Anna's always gone looking for jobs, and my mom is out of town, so it's just been Finn and I lately.

Finn has really encouraged me to get back into the mood. I hadn't uploaded a video in months, so he helped to give me ideas again.

I finally filmed a video and uploaded it. It was an update video, just telling people what's going on in my life. Not all the confusing details, of course. Just the basic ones. Then I responded to a few Tweets.

@Julie_is_queen_tho said: Oh my god Julie you're actually alive

To which I responded: Yeah, I am. I've been really busy lately, with the move to New York and all.

@Idontregretjoiningtheinternet said: DID I HEAR A FINN HARRIES JULINN CONFIRMED OR NAH

I laughed out loud at that one: Lol no you heard a Jack Harries. He came to visit me.

Come on, I had to lie about that.

@Muke_and_Milie_are_much_real said: Hey how's Mikey how's you doing

I wasn't quite sure what to say to this one: Fine, thanks for asking.

It was vague, but it did the job.

During dinner, it was silent, until Finn spoke up.

"So, about you possibly wanting to take me back?" He asked, looking me directly in the eye.

I dropped my fork into my plate of food.

I completely forgot that I had said that.

It wasn't a lie, of course. It was true, one hundred percent true.

I would take him back. I could so easily. He's proven to me that he's sorry multiple times. Also, Finn loves me in a way Michael can't.

Finn understands who I really am. I'm a messed up, confused, girl, and he gets it. He loves me, despite my flaws.

Michael loves me because of my flaws. He loves that I'm messed up and confused. He thinks it makes me more interesting.

But which do I prefer? Would I rather be loved despite my flaws, or would I rather be loved for my flaws? Do I want my flaws to be ignored, or embraced?

Finally, without even really thinking, I did it.

I grabbed Finn by the shirt collar, and kissed him.

A/N: Hi guys so yeah this happened Serenity DONT KILL ME