ON HOLD I'm just human. I can't be the Alphas mate.

18. What you do to me.

Rose POV.

I put away the food and left the rest for tomorrow. I was tiered and just wanted too sleep.

I was on the fifth step when i heard the door open. I froze in place as Alpha Belikov entered the house.

"Rosemarie? Can we talk." He said with a voice that held no emotion.

I groaned unintentional earning a glare when i turned. "Don't call me Rosemarie. It's just Rose.!" I said annoyed at the use off my full name. "I made dinner. I could just heat it up..." i said but he cutt me off.

"I'm not hungry." I stepped one step down. "Alright Alpha Belikov. Let's talk then, but make it quick i want too go to bed." I sneered. His fist and jaw locked in place at my agitation.

"Fine. The cooks at the pack house were asking for you. Your wellbeing. I tolled them your fine. But they tolled me you help them with cooking and cleaning. Is that correct." He asked completely detached from any emotion.

I nodded. "Thats sweet and Yeah i help out sometimes..." he then interupted me. "You will stop doing that. It's not your place to do that." He spat out. I gaped at him. "Then wat the hell am i suppose too do around here. Sit on my ass all day. Besides i like too cook. On occasion."

He folded his arms over his chest. "You are not their maid. Let the cleaning up to those who are supposed to." He said sounding like this wasn't up for debate.

"Fine." I wanted too ad 'he couldn't tell me what too do' but I need him too do something for me. So i mentally comprised. "I hear you punished the group I was with. Is that correct." I asked emulating his tone. Folding my arms under my chest.

He squinted his eyes at me taking moment too awnser. "Yes." He finally said shortly. "Then i ask you if you would reconsider letting them attend the social. It would me a shame if they don't find their mate by not attending." I glared down at him.

He huffed. "You almost got killed and they disobeyed a direct order. They deserve punishment."

"That maybe so. But it's not fare to ruin there lives for it. Extend there cleaning duties if you must... All i ask you is too think about it. Think about your sister for example. Are you prepared too let her live without a mate just because she was trying too help... Alpha Belikov good night. " I hissed turning on my heel tutting too my room exhausted and hurt by his coldness too me. I don't know if i can keep this up. A low growl rang through the hallway as i hurried too my room. I caught him saying faintly. "Roza, Call me Dimitri not Alpha."

My legs took me too the balcony and i sat down against the wall. Something wet trickled down my cheek. I touched my cheek too find that some tears managed too escape me. I growled lightly at myself. "Rose really. You haven't cried for 10 years. Yet now your doing it every week. What the hell wrong with you." I shighed deeply and stood up.

'Get ahold off yourself Rose.'

'Yeah i know. Why does he have such an effect on us.' I shighed over too the full length mirror.

'He's our mate. We need him too be with us. Cuddle us, love us. So when he turns a cold shoulder it hurts.'

I took off the bandages on my arms and stepped out off my dress. Looking myself over in the mirror. The bruises and scratch marks were almost gone. Nothing a night off sleep couldn't fix.

"Am I that desgusting, is it the scars? Maybe I'm just fat? If he's into skinny, skrawny anorexic girls like Tasha. Ugh. Maybe he thinks I'm weak?" I said to myself but it somehow I was getting angry especially at the weak part. My fist were balled up and i noticed my eyes were darker.