Song is above
(The guy who covers it talks a bit at the beginning)
It's an old song which doesn't fit as well as I'd have liked but the lyrics fit well with what I wrote so Imma use it bitches!
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Whoa, my love
My darling
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
Ash,
I still think about the day you left, how we fought with tears running down our cheeks.
How I wish we didn't fight.
How I wish we were still alright.
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
Look at me - rhyming my sentences.
This is your fault; you made me help you write songs.
I like it though, it kind of helps me find the words.
But it destroys me at the same time, Ash.
It reminds me of you and how you won't be coming back for ages - How I won't get to kiss you and be filled with the clarity that tells me that you still want me, after all the time we faced apart.
Because I've been asking, Ash, the thought has been haunting me.
Do you still want me?
Are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me
And this is going to sound pathetic but I need you, Ash.
I'm struggling.
We haven't spoken since we fought that day, both too stubborn and too upset to say the words we need to say.
I did try though, Ash.
I know you read my texts and received my voicemails.
And it kills me that you don't reply.
I need to hear you say those three words, Ash.
I need to know that you're still mine.
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, "Wait for me, wait for me
I'll be coming home, wait for me"
I've cried so much thinking about that argument, Ash.
It's made me wonder if there's any point in living at all.
My uni grades are dropping, and my friends refuse to hang out with somebody who just cries all the time, whilst she sits at home and waits for her boyfriend to come back.
But that's what you told me to do Ash, that's what you wanted... right?
'Wait for me, wait for me' you muttered. 'I'll be coming home, wait for me'.
Whoa, my love
My darling
I've hungered, hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
I've waited Ash, I've waited so fucking long and it's driving me insane.
I need to touch you, to remind myself that this relationship is... was... as real as you are.
I need to fall asleep to you stroking my hair as you sing my favourite song.
Do you still hum the tune, Ash, do you still remember the words?
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?
I haven't seen you in so long Ash, and I don't even know what we are anymore.
I saw those pictures online of you with that model - The tall, skinny, blonde one.
What a way to lower my self esteem, Ash, what a way to kick me where it hurts.
Is she better than me? Is she sweeter? Funnier? Prettier?
Of course she is...
She's not me.
I need your love
I need your love
God speed your love to me
And the only reason I'm still here waiting for you, Ash, is that I'm clinging onto the words you said.
Clinging onto the look in your eyes as you told me to wait.
I need you to come in the door and hug me tighter than you have ever done before.
I need you to kiss me with so much passion that I feel my heart skip two beats.
I need you to giggle as you pull away, turning my dullness into happiness.
I need you to tell me how much you missed me, and you hated being away from me for longer than a day.
But I find myself wondering if this will happen, Ash, because one question is circulating my mind, seeping into every thought, at any goddamn time.
Are you still mine?
And the answer results in the same thing, causing me to sink to the floor and cry.
Five words, just five...
...That was your final goodbye.
