He'll Thug For Me

Honesty

"So whatchu sayin is you not really feelin me but what I can give you...damn," Jace said.

I had told him how I planned on using him...but did I really? I honestly don't know.

"No not what I'm saying. I like you. I just want to you to know the thought crossed my mind. Look I let people get in my head and I won't again."

He only nodded and leaned off his car. He looked at his watch then back to me, "Aye I'm headin out, I'll drop you off."

He didn't wait for a response before getting inside of his car. Feeling out of place and bad about the situation I got in the car.

What I'm learning about Jace is that though he's this big tough guy to everyone, he's very sensitive. Maybe I shouldn't have told him. Especially when I hadn't done anything wrong.

"Jace I'm sorry," I said as he drove in silence.

"It's cool," he said not looking at me.

A few more houses past by then we were at mine. He stopped in the middle of the street. I watched him and waited for anything. Nothing. He didn't even look at me.

So much for honesty.

"I got shit to do if you don't need anything else." He rushed.

I nodded, "Okay." I got out and watched as the car screeched away.

I spun around to see Daneisha staring at me with a evil glare. "The shit I'm talkin bout." She then hopped down the porch and walked past me still staring.

Ignoring her I went inside. There were people everywhere. I just hurried to the back. I'm so over today. I got Jace mad at me.

The rest of the week went by smooth aside from still having Jace still mad at me. I looked for him everyday at the library. Nothing.

When Friday came I was happy to be out of the house for the weekend.

"So we're going to have so much fun. Dad gave me the car after I told him I was having company. He and mom will be at work." Kira said as we walked out of school.

Everybody was rushing out, bumping into us in the process. Their dumb asses act like it's the final Friday or last day or school. Calm your shit, Monday is right around the corner.

I ignore the people and look to Kira, "That's cool."

"Do you have a car?" She asked.

I shook my head. "I don't know how to drive?'

Kira gave me a double look, "What? Why? Oh my God, Flynn's mom works at the DMV, you totally need to have her teach you lessons, she's awesome."

I smiled. That would great. Maybe having Kira in my life wouldn't be a bad thing.

"So...how's Jacey doing? Is he coming over?" She asked curiously as we reached the student parking lot.

I shook my head, "He's uh, not too happy with me."

Her eyes went buck, "What the hell why?" I told her what happened and she replied, "What he needs to realize is that at least you're being up front with his ass and the fact that you considered it, not did it. You didn't even really consider it in my eyes. That boy need to get out of his damn feelings."

I laughed a little. At least she wasn't down my throat about it. I've been beating myself up about it all week. And to see that it's not completely my fault, it felt good. I felt like a lot of weight was being pulled of me.

Kira stopped by a navy blue Volkswagen Jetta. It was pretty.

"So they let you drive this all the time?" I asked.