He'll Thug For Me

What He Does

That night I heard mostly arguing. I swear I don't know why I didn't phone Jace and tell him to pick my ass up from this crazy place. Kira was going crazy. That's exactly what she is, naturally crazy.

While I was laying down trying to find a way out this house, cause ain't no way in hell Im living with these people, Kira came in.

"Hey...you must think we're crazy," she said nearing me.

I quickly shook my head. Like hell yeah I think y'all crazy but since I'm not crazy or real I lied, "Nah you family. Families do that." Even though I wouldn't know I never had a real family. I don't know what that feels like.

"It's just..." She starts crying, "...that's a big secret to carry around for so long. Like what else has he been hiding. I want to blame him for everything you been through. He could have stopped it but instead he watched you from a distance like a friggin creep."

I shake my head, "I ain't his responsibility. What happened happened. Ain't nobody fault but the people responsible. He's your dad not mine."

Kira sends a small smile, sitting on the bed with me, "Yeah but what he did kinda like makes us sisters. Gosh this world really is small."

I smile, "I said the same shit."

And we burst out laughing. Once we're done we sit in silence. I look to see her and she looks so broken so I bring her into a hug causing her to cry again.

The next day I woke up real early and crept down to kitchen cause since their crazy asses we're going at it last night I stayed in the room.

I'm hungry.

I see Trey laying on the couch snoring lightly. I smile and continue into the kitchen. Flipping on a light I almost scream.

"Early bloomer too?" Kira's mom ask. She's sitting at their island drinking coffee she looks beyond stressed.

"Yeah...hungry." I reply.

She nods, "There's plenty here. Have at it. You're family, right? Just like that."

You see I'm not trying to deal with a salty bitch. Don't get mad at me. Get at your man's infidelities.

"You don't like me do you?" I asked straight up. Lets just get this out the way now.

Her expression softened, "It's not you. It's...when I look at you now all I see is your mom. God you look just like her. She had always been beautiful...if she were still here the husband that I love and thought loved me-wouldn't, it sort of hurts."

I nod understandingly. I know what she means and I hate that she feels that way.

"Well he's here with you and haven't left. Appreciate that. But I don't see myself being apart of this family. Too much has happened to me for me to just find a new family. Baby steps." I confessed.

After Shelly I realized the word family don't mean shit and never will to me.

She looked from me to her coffee, "That I can understand completely. Here sit down and I'll make breakfast."

Surprisingly breakfast went by well. Alice woke everybody up and somehow someway this crazy ass family overlooked yesterday and acted like a chilled ass family.

But they're crazier than I thought if they think I'm leaving Jace for this. He's been there for me when no one else was.

"So you're not planning on staying are you?" Trey asked while Kira was in the shower.

I can be honest with him. I like Trey he's cool people. "No. I'm happy with where I'm at."

"You two are moving too fast. We aren't bad people trust me you two need this space. Even if I don't care for guy I don't want you broken hearted because you two got sick of one another."