Everybody is Someone Else's Secret (Seamus Finnigan)HOLD

Chapter 15

Christmas Break was nearly upon Hogwarts School of Witchcraft. I usually would have been in a merry mood, but ever since Seamus Finnigan broke up with me a few weeks ago. No one was able to cheer me up. Not Cedric, Nicole, Harry, Ron, Hermione, Luna, or even the Weasley Twins with their boisterous pranks. Even Draco had left me alone more now. Although I know he still likes-er maybe even loves me...It had occurred to me to date Draco just to piss off Seamus on purpose, to make him jealous. Yet I couldn't. No way in hell would I date that ferret, at least not right now. I was way passed the anger stage. I have been depressed for a while now. Break would make me even more depressed if anything. Cedric and everyone is really worried about me, and how I'm taking this. I guess I'm still shocked that Seamus actually believed me. Didn't he know me well enough to know that I was just saying that to protect myself? Did it even matter? Dad always says that the past is the past and that when the past isn't good enough you must look towards the future.

What if I didn't want to look toward the future? What is I wanted my life to go back to normal, whatever normal was. Why did Draco had to ruin it all? He always ruins everything, intentional or unintentional both. No matter what he seemed to do. No matter how he acted or what he said. It was always him. Always. Well, I had something to say about that. I defiantly has something to say about that!

I stormed angrily out of the Gryffindor Common Room and out into the Great Hall. Everyone was either eating or talking, some even doing both at the same time. Glancing around at the Slytherin table, I spot Draco Malfoy getting up. Even more of a shock was that he was heading in my direction. It wasn't until he was much closer in proximity to me that I realized he was also carrying on him an envelope. He smirked, but it was half hearted, as he grabbed my hand and led me out of the Great Hall.

My confidence slipped down a few notches and whatever I was going to say to him had slipped away also. Draco seemed...different. Different yet again. Except this time it almost was genuine. Did something inside Draco Malfoy change? Or was it my wildest dreams and I was actually dreaming that this is happening.

Regardless of whether it was real or fantasy, he slipped the envelope into my hand, whispering the words, "I do believe that this is yours, Emma Diggory," into my ear before he left me standing there. I could still feel his words, his breath on my cheek, that was how close he was. My heart had sped up a little faster. My fingertips trembled. My eyes closed a moment and I sighed deeply. My brain couldn't process anything at the moment.

"Let's go," I heard a voice behind me say. I turned and looked to see Seamus hanging out with Dean Thomas. Our eyes awkwardly met, and I turned away as fast as I could-so he couldn't see the tears that were starting to form without my permission. I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach. That couldn't have been good. I've got to stop thinking about Seamus Finnigan, how pathetic can I get?

My dad's words now kind of made some sense, there was no way I would continue on like this...I have been acting helpless and also very selfish...The only question, am I just talk? Would I really be able to get over Seamus Finnigan? His gorgeous eyes and that flawless smile? The way he comforted me and made me laugh so hard I cried?

Thinking about him makes my stomach tingle. For a moment I forgot about the letter that was in my hand, begging to be opened. Scared I was going to run into Seamus again if I went into the Gryffindor Common Room, I head outside, and sat on a bench to read the letter. The wind whipped across my face, tugging at my hair. I unfolded the letter, holding it with an iron grip in my hand, and read it.

'My Dearest Emma,

I can't believe I am saying this, but I am. Emma, I believe that I am slowly and surely falling in love with you. If Seamus can't see how wonderful that you are, I will. You are a wonderful, pretty person...

Draco Malfoy'

My heart nearly stopped as soon as I read the words he wrote to me...Is what he says true? A part of me thinks so, another part of me isn't too sure that Draco is one to be trusted.

Then again, I trusted Seamus, didn't I? And look where it got me; heartbreak. Yet a part of me was still in love with him, no matter what he did.

"What is that?" Cedric was standing before me, an odd expression written upon his face, "And why are you out here? I have been looking all over everywhere for you! And you're out here! If you aren't careful, you'll catch a cold, Emma! Stop being so careless." He huffed, sighing, "as your older brother, it's my responsibility to take care of you..."

I sighed, getting up and handed him the letter, "You want to read this, fine...I know, Cedric, I-I just...I just couldn't risk facing...Well..." Gah! I couldn't even say Seamus's name out loud! How pathetic? Why couldn't I be one of those girls who could get over heartbreak easily? Why couldn't I just forget about Seamus? Did Seamus still think about me? Is he just as hurt? Does he believe me now? If he does, is he too embarrassed to make up with me? And the most important question that plagued my mind, did Seamus still love me?

Cedric laughed, in fact, he seemed to think the letter to be pretty damn funny, "Does Malfoy really think that you would fall for this? I know that even you're smarter than that, Emma! I know you are!" Cedric grinned, taking my hand, "I know, Emma. I talked to Seamus earlier, he's...he's being stubborn. In the mean time, don't worry about him. Time heals all wounds, my dearest little sister." And he laughed again, ripping up Draco's letter into teeny, tiny shards.

"Yeah..." I whispered...The thing was, I did sort of believe Draco...