[Warning: In the beginning this is going to be depressing, so be aware of that, after a bit it this will get better.]
((Y/n) P.O.V)
"I'm tired of dreaming.
I'm through with trying.
Tired of living, yet scared of dying.
Maybe things are good for you,
but look at all that I've been through.
Look at all the pain I've won.
I bet you think that it's been fun.
You never thought I'd turn away.
You never believed you'd see this day.
Look again cuz here I go
leaving behind all I know.
Changing it all as I must do.
Not daring to stop and think things through.
Wanting to run as fast as I can,
not stopping until I understand.
Like why did I let things get this way?
Why didn't I leave yesterday?
How are things going to be,
since there is no more you and me" (Family Friend Poems: © Vanessa Brown).
I read the poem again, for the fifth time today.
It's officially been six months since I saw Uta and Yomo on their date. It's been official on Uta's Facebook page, that the two have been going steady, for two months.
Did I do some thing wrong? Was I really the problem? Was it me who made the mistake in our relationship?
I began to cry again, just thinking about Uta makes my eyes water, but this time it wasn't just crying instead sobbing with no restraint to the point of vomiting. The tightness in my chest unwavering just his name could bring me to a depressive state in which there is no return, for days.
"(Y/n)?" Shuu knocked at my door, he sounded concerned.....but then again he does everyday that he checks up on me.
"Go away, Shuu" I said staying right where I was, laying on my bed wrapped up in my blankets.
"I'll be back" He said in a low tone, I heard his foot steps fall out of ear shot as I then was transported into silence. Another knock came to the door, jumping me out of my skin.
Since when did Shuu get so quiet?
I walked up to the door, my feet stomping as I walked towards it, I didn't care that my eyes were red and puffy from crying, it was just Shuu after all. "Shuu, I said to go the fuck away!" I opened the door and in front of me was not Shuu, it was the exact opposite of Shuu "What the hell are you doing here, Uta?"
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(Uta P.O.V)
It's been miserable. These past few months with out (Y/n) by my side, I thought Yomo could fill the void but he wasn't looking for anything serious. We've been over for about a month and a half now, about the time we made it official on Facebook.
Since we broke it off, Yomo and I, all I've been able to think about (Y/n)'s touch.
I over reacted, (Y/n).....
