the story of how my life became awesome

the story of how my life became awesome (24/?)

Chapter twenty-four.

I opened my eyes and I was looking up at a white ceiling. I tried to sit up straight but everything was sore. I looked around the unfamiliar room. Everything was white and I was all alone. I had no idea what happened or why I even was there. I waited for what felt like hours until there was some noise on the hallway and finally the door opened. There walked a man into the room that I had never seen before. ‘So you woke up’ he said. ‘Sorry what? Who are you?’ I was confused. ‘Oh I’m sorry I’m doctor Johnson, you’re in the hospital’ hospital?...... and then I remembered. The car accident… ‘Where’s everyone? What happened?’ I panicked but the doctor came closer. ‘Calm down okay’ he said in a soft voice. I took a deep breath. ‘Yes I’m sorry’ he smiles. ‘It’s okay’ his smile faded away. ‘You’re the only one that woke up yet’ he says. I swallowed. ‘Where are they?’ in other rooms. He said. ‘Can I go see them?’ he obviously hesitated. ‘well…. I don’t really think that’s a good idea’ he said. ‘But why not?’ I asked confused. The doctor looked away from me and started pacing. ‘They’re dead, your parents are dead Bo’ I shook my head in disbelief. ‘no that’s not true, you’re lying’ he shook his head. ‘Sadly I am not’ he said. ‘But, but’ I didn’t know what to say anymore I couldn’t believe it but I had to. I would never see them again. It felt like my heart was ripped into a million pieces. This can’t be happening they can’t be dead. I felt something wet on my cheek and realised I was crying. ‘W-what about Darren?’ the question had burned on my lips the whole time but I hadn’t dare to ask because of the answer I might get. ‘You mean the other guy?’ he asked. ‘Y-yes’ I said almost inaudible. ‘oh uhm yeah he is asleep, he hasn’t woke up yet but we think he will soon. He’s not seriously injured.’ The doctor said and I released a breath I didn’t realise I was holding. ‘Can I please go see him?’ I said and looked at the doctor with pleading eyes. ‘Well okay but not too long you just woke up yourself and’ I interrupted him by saying I was fine and by getting out of bed. ‘can you bring me to him now?’ I said as I stood still next to the bed. ‘Yes okay, follow me please’ he said and opened the door to the hallway.

I felt numb. Darren hadn’t woke up my parents are dead… I still couldn’t believe it. Maybe  that’s why I didn’t cry anymore. Just because I thought it wasn’t real. Because I thought I misunderstood the doctor and that they would be here any minute. So I could hug them and my mom would kiss my forehead and my dad would pull me into a hug being so glad that his daughter was alright. But of course that didn’t happen because they were dead. The doctor stopped in front of a room. ‘here it is’ he said. I looked at the door and swallowed before opening it. The room was dark and the curtains were closed. There was a single chair next to the bed and a nightstand. I walked to the bed and sat down on the edge. I carefully grabbed Darren’s hand and squeezed it lightly. ‘Darren?....’ no answer. Not that I really expected one but it would have been a nice surprise. I touched his cheek but it wasn’t warm and soft as it was normally. I took a good look at him and that was it. I broke. I suddenly realised that my parents were really dead and that Darren maybe wasn’t waking up. I didn’t know what to do anymore but then I felt a light touch at my finger. I shook my head. I must have imagined it because I want him to wake up so badly but then I felt it again. I looked at my hand and saw Darren’s hand moving a little. I looked at his face but his eyes were still closed. Maybe it was just a twitch. I teared my gaze away from his face and look at the floor. It was white. Just like everything else and it made me feel sick. Would it help to talk to him? Like they always did in movies. ‘Darren, p-please wake up’ I said still crying. Nothing. ‘Please I can’t loose you too’ I let go of his hand and buried my head in my hands when I felt something twitch beside me. I looked up from my hands and saw that Darren had opened his eyes. I started crying even more. ‘Bo?’ he whispered while looking at me. ‘Yes, yes I’m here’ I said. ‘What happened?’ he mumbled. ‘c-car crash’ I said. He closed his eyes probably trying to remember but I panicked  and thought he might leave me again. ‘Darren please stay with m-me’ I whispered. ‘Of course’ he said and opened his eyes again. ‘You scared me’ ‘I’m sorry…’ ‘Come here’ he said and pulled me further onto the bed while holding me close. ‘Where are you parents?’ he asked. I wanted to tell him, I tried but I couldn’t. ‘They’re…’ I tried again  ‘They are, they are’ but I just couldn’t I couldn’t say it out loud because that would make it so much more real. ‘Bo’ he took my head in both of his hands. ‘What happened to them?’ I had to tell him. ‘dead’ I whispered. ‘They’re dead?’ he repeated in disbelief. I buried my face in his hair and tried to snuggle closer.  ‘please don’t leave me Darren’ I said. ‘I won’t’ he whispered near my ear. ‘never’ he said and kissed my forehead. ‘I-I don’t know what to do’ I said crying. ‘Shh we’ll figure something out’ he whispered trying to comfort me. ‘How can we figure something out? They’re dead Darren’ I said ‘I’m sorry I didn’t mean it like that…’ ‘shh I know just calm down okay’ he pulled me even closer and his curls tickled against my cheek. I closed my eyes and we both said nothing. ‘Darren?..’ I whispered after a long time. ‘Yes’ he answered immediately. ‘Can you sing for me?’ he smiles but I didn’t see since my eyes were closed.