(AN: Sorry at bitin ang last update. Sabog na sabog talaga utak kanina. Hahahaha! I need tea. Somebody make cups of tea. Hahaha! Nagpapasalamat nga pala ako sainyong lahat! Thank you readers. Kung naappreciate nyo man 'to, please say you're welcome. At kung hndi man.. Maraming salamat pa dn at binasa nyo. Hahaha! Mahal ko kayo :) btw ang gwapo ng mga Hasht5. Laglag panty! Whoo! Di pala ako nagpapanty haha kidding)
MEGAN POV
I wasnt around during the last three games ng University league. Una, busy ako sa company at school. Pangalawa, nadedepressed ako. Dad is sending me to Ohio para doon mag aral for college.
Malakas akong tao. Mayabang nga, diba? Hindi ko kinakaawaan ang sarili ko dahil hndi ako marunong madepressed. But I feel hopeless. Life has left me no choice this time. I am trapped.
2weeks ago, medyo maluwag ang schedule. Just to find a way to distract myself from despair, nagbalik ako sa training. Nag focus ako sa practice. After practice, pupunta ako sa cafe/bistro. Nagstart ako magipon ng pera dahil I am planning to run away one of these days.
May game kami ngayon. Laban sa McCartney University. Friendly game, walang trashtalk dahil mga kaibigan namin ang mga nasa kabila.
Yuri arrived at the parking lot wearing sunnies. "You okay? May sore eyes ka?" I asked her, "O sadyang mataas ang araw dito?"
"Puyat ako." She mumbled as she put down her glasses. Yuri doesnt talk that much anymore and so do I. But Yuri is having a hard time too, hers is just tougher. Kakatapos lang ni Camille sa second chemo therapy niya at dun nangangamba si Yuri dahil humihina ang appetite ni Camille. Yuri buys a lot of peppermint gums dahil napapadalas ba ang pagsusuka ng girlfriend niya.
"Hey, Yuri." Aliyah emerged. "Camille texted me. Sabihin ko daw sayo, nanunuod daw sya sa TV."
Yuri half smiled.
Nag warm up kami sa parking lot. Nang patapos na kami ay may dumating, si Janine.
She pecked me on my lips. May dala syang gatorade. Not my favorite flavor.
"Thanks." I said, trying to be polite.
She was about to say something but a group of girls came up to see us. Andito ang mga kaibigan namin na makakalaban namin mamaya sa volleyball. Si Jana at Taki na close friends nila Aliyah at Andrea, si Kiara na girlfriend ni Aliyah at si Haven... with Sydney.
"Aalis na ako." Janine held my hand, squeezing it gently.
Halos hndi ko matanggal ang tingin ko kay Sydney na hindi man lang mapansin na andito ako.
"You take care." I told her
"Arent you going to kiss me?" Janine glared at me
I threw a disgusted look at her. Is she mental?! O right, she is mental!! Damn it!!! "Fine." I kissed her. It was supposed to be a short peck but she held my neck, making my lips stuck against hers. Damn it!
When she pulled back, I couldnt help not to check Sydney looking. She caught that. It wasnt the first time she saw this. But Geeez, damn it!
She doesnt look like she gives a fuck though. She doesnt seem like she was affected by that. Bat ba ako nagaassume? Maybe because i still have a hunch that she stil loves me.
It's over, Megan.
The Lady sharks left our warm up spot. I watched her leave the place with Haven, holding her close.
Gusto kong suntukin si Haven. I wanted to tell her that she's mine. I wanted to rub it in her face that I am the only person who is responsible of taking care of Sydney. But what right do I have?
It's over, Megan.
Nagstart ang game. There will be no more Sydney at the bleachers, waiting for me to wink at her before doing my service and after killing the ball. There will be no more Sydney waiting for me at the bleachers after the game. There will be no more Sydney who makes me feel more conceited in playing because she's simply the best energizer I have... I mean, I ever HAD.
Past tense.
Our team won. After the game, sa parking lot na ako nag ayos. Mag isa ko sa parking lot ngayon. Naupo muna ako sa passenger seat ng kotse ko at mariin kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko.
I feel weak.
This is all new to me.
Yea, I feel weak.
And tired.
I got rid of my kneepads at ihinagis ko ng malakas sa backseat. Naiinis ako. Galit ako.
Bigla siyang dumating. Nakatayo sya sa harap ng sasakyan. Mga ilang metro. Magisa nya lang. Bumaba ako mula sa sasakyan at nilapitan siya.
"We need to talk." She mumbled.
"Yes, we need to talk." I nodded.
We were silent for a moment.
"Maybe now?"
"Nope. Bukas siguro, icocompose ko pa kasi kung paano ko sasabihin sayo." She said. I cleared my throat.
"You can tell me right now. Tell me kahit magulo."
She smirked. "Bukas na. I have to go na din kasi, may pupuntahan kasi kami nila------"
"Do you love her?" I interrupted her
"What?" She creased her eyebrows, confusion written all over her face.
"Diba sabi ko sayo, ayaw kong lumalapit ka kay Haven?" I told her with a cold voice. It sounded like a reprimand.
"What right do you have, Megan Mackenzie? You cant tell me what to do." She raised an eyebrow.
That felt so wrong.
It hurts so bad.
"I still love you, Sydney."
"You dont. You never did. I didnt plan to talk about this."
"I do, Sydney. I do love you." My jaw hardened. Halos hndi ko maisara ang mga labi ko dahil halos kagatin ko na ang dila ko.
She chuckled, shaking her head. "I am not in love with you anymore. I am done, Megan. It's over, right?"
I dont know how to respond to that.
"I have to go, okay? Stop making fun of me, Megan. Tapos na yun. Sana makonsensya ka naman. You're with Janine. See you soon."
Parang sumasakit ang mga mata ko. She left me there, crestfallen.
(AN: nyehehehehe)
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