Captured (A Finchel Story)

Chapter 23

(5 weeks till graduation)
I dont know how many times i stopped infront of the prison, holding my breath and thinking that this is a mistake. That i shouldnt go inside, just go home and live a normal teenager life. But in the end i always enter it.
This time its different. Because i know that i should go inside, telling Finn that i want to know immediately what really happened in that night and if he really killed someone, just like Mike said. And why Finn always says that Mike is dangerous. Okay true, he hit me and im not going to forgive him that soon, but according to Mike Finn is the dangerous one of them two.
And so i stand infront of this prison, knowing that i should go inside, but i dont.
I can't go inside, im too scared to find out that Mike was telling the truth, that Finn is really a killer, that i will never see Finn again after this conversation.
With a deep breath i turn around and walk away, till a voice screaming behind my name.
Its not Finn, that would be a huge coincedence, but its Noah Clark, Finn's guard.
Well i dont know if its Finn's guard but Noah Clark is often around Finn, so i suspect he decided to be kind of Finns guard.
I turn around to him and see how he's running up to me.
"Whats wrong?", i ask and cross my arms.
Noah Clark stops infront of me, breathing heavy due to that he ran after me. He doesnt seem to be the sporty type of police man.
"Why didnt you go in?", he asks back and he hits me right there where it hurts.
I didnt go in because i am scared of whatever happened with Finn, that whatever he did will change us, the thing we have, that it will destroy all my hopes, all my feelings that are reserved for him.
"I-I dont know", i say instead and look down.
Noah Clark sighs. "You know i normally do not talk to visitors of prisoners, but this time its really different. Finn is only 19, he literally destroyed his life with -"
"With killing someone?", i interrupt him and face him. "Is it that what you want to tell me?"
He sighs again. "Yes. And no."
I raise my eyebrowns. "Yes and no?"
"The court decided that he killed someone, Finn disagrees on that ever since he was put into the handcuffs. Thats why his punishment isnt as long as it normally would be. There isnt enough prove that he really killed her."
So no one is sure about if Finn really killed this girl?
"Wait but why is he imprisoned yet? Shouldnt he be free then?"
Noah Clark shakes his head. "Finn admitted that he did try to kill her. The court said though that he killed her, but according to Finn he came when she was already dead."
I look over Clark's shoulder to the prison. What if Mike was lying? What if Finn didnt kill this girl?
"i need to talk to him", i whisper determined and run past him, over to the prison.

We are in the window room again, and this time im glad we are. I have no idea what is going to happen, and i want to run away as fast as i can, without knowing that Finn could follow me.
Finn's already there when i sit down.
The last time i saw him, was right after we kissed. It sounds so unreal, that we kissed.
But we did, and it was all i could think of the past days. And that FInn may killed someone.
He looks as good as ever, maybe a little tired.
Finn puts on a smile as he sees me, but i cant smile back, not now.
Obviously he notices it and so he quits his smile and takes the telephone.
I do the same.
"I doubt that you're here to talk about last week.", he announces and i nod.
"Tell me what happened, why you're here. No excuses. No movements to the next week.
I want you to tell me it right now. Here."
Finn shrugs, like a little kid just got hit by his mother. I've heard versions of two different people, now i want the version of the boy who's in the prison for either what he did or what he tried to do.
Finn breathes heavy, i can hear it through the telephone. Maybe its hard for him to tell me, to admit it to me, but i need to know it, i cant stand the feeling of not knowing something.
"Did you kill her?", i ask, soft.
"No!", his reaction is explosive and now i am the one who shrugs.
"I didnt kill her! I swear to god! I could have never did that!"
But didnt Noah Clark say that Finn tried to kill her? Whatever, just keep listening Berry.
Finn looks down while he talks.
"I loved her, i really did. She was my girlfriend after all and i never wanted to hurt her in any way. And actually i was sure that she also loved me. But i was wrong in that point."
Was that the reason why he wanted me to stay? Because he was left by her? Because his heart was broken? Or maybe still is.
"What was her name?", i ask.
He takes a deep breath. "Lacey" His voice sounds like he didnt say this name for a long time and actually didnt want to say it out loud.
"Tell me what happened." My voice shivers as i see how Finn shakes his head.
"Please."