Captured (A Finchel Story)

Chapter 14

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When i was younger i always watched those princess movies, you know those movies where the prince falls in love with a normal girl and not the princess and they have to take so many consequences but they still love each other? Thats how every girl used to imagine their life, but it seems way too perfect to be real but no girl thought about that. I was one of those girls.
Whenever i walked past a guy i asked myself; Maybe he is my prince?
But sadly no one ever talked with me or saved me. I waited till now for this prince, its awful to wait and it wasnt worth it.
Now my heart seems to tell me that my prince is a prisoner and my head tells me that my prince is a weird guy of my school.
There could be way better options, im sure about that. I even would take Sam or another football guy than Finn Hudson.
Since he stood in that door and stared at me i can't get him out of my head, his face is stuck in me.
Mike noticed that too, well he didnt notice that i saw a guy in the door who probably wasnt even there, all in all: he quit the date.
I would lie if i say i was happy that he did. I liked being with him because he distracted me a little bit from all the trouble around me but on the other side it was better that he went home earlier because i just couldnt concentrate anymore and i nothing from the food he ordered for me, even though it looked really delicious. Maybe i should say sorry that i was so awful at that date and buy him chocolate or something. Thats the only thing i can do right now.

When i arrived at home, the house was dark and Leroy was sleeping on the couch, holding the receiver in his hand.
He really is doing well since the whole divorce thing got official.
He works again, cooks and he plans a trip for him and me for the easter vacations.
(Tbh i dont even know if america has easter vacations i only know that germany does so idk :D)
I totally forgot about them, they are in one week but now i am just so damn happy that they are coming so i can get out of this school and away from Mike and Kitty and Sam and Quinn.
Nothing against Kitty, she is my best friend but we both havent had any contact the last time and that now where i need her the most. I want to tell her about Finn about Mike and about the weird illusion that Finn was in the restaurant, which wasnt BreadStixx it was another one which i didnt know but Mike obviously did.
I would call it an illusion because it is totally impossible that he was there in real. He is in jail, he cant get out of there and that kinda calmed me down just because i knew that he couldnt be there in real and only my fantasy went through with me.
It still means that i wanted him to be there when i was on a date with another guy and that doesnt calm me down at all.
How am i supposed to live a normal life when all im thinking about is Finn?
You need to get a boyfriend, is the first thing im thinking. That would definitely distract me, im sure and it really is time that im getting my first boyfriend.
Mike? Well it would be possible our date wasnt too bad, i mean yeah he went earlier but if he would get to know me better ... maybe ... i will call him tomorrow and ask him out one more time again, where its only him and me.
I walk into my room, turn the light on and the first thing i see is a paper on my bed. A rose next to it.
In really slow steps i walk up to it and grab the paper.

Don't see me again

...Stands on it. I look at the rose. Its broken in the middle, split into two parts. Finn. He was there. He doesnt want to see me again and for the first time since i met him i break down. Not because he doesnt want to see me, because its all too much. The text messages, the broken rose, that he was there and bothers my private life. The fact that he has control over me, that he got me to come back to the prison and that he now thinks he can throw me away like trash.
I never cried so hard in my entire life, my chest hurts and it feels like all the air around me was taken away from me, like im in a vacuum.
The room turns black, although the light is on, the ceiling is suddendly the ground and the ground the ceiling. My whole world is turned around and i cant deal with that not now.
I am not strong, i am weak, i am not brave, i am a coward, and i am not able to control my feelings. Falling in love with a prisoner ... what did i expect? That he feels the same way? No of course not, he saw that i have a life next to him and now im not good enough anymore. He used me, hoping that i would help him to get out of there, but i obviously cant. Its crazy, i've only known him for two weeks and i expect that he would like me the way i do, how do i even know that i love him?
Because you do, Rachel, and you know it.

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Kitty stands with Quinn, Santana and Brittany at her locker, laughing like they are best friends.
I miss my best friend, but now as i see her laughing with the evil i just want to throw a slushie into her face, thats how angry i am.
I threw the paper and the split rose away, just far away from me. I dont even wanna think about the fact that Finn had to be in my room to put the paper and the rose on my bed. Maybe thats the reason why he's in jail: incurable Stalker syndrome.
Quinn walks away with Santana and Brittany so Kitty is alone but i dont feel the need to go to her. She could have go to me and tell me what happened between her and Sam but no and i am not going to tell her about the date with Mike. Not now.
Just as i think about him i see him standing with a few guys in the hallway, looking good as ever. He has some similarities with Finn but that probably is just my stalked brain which happens to mistake both guys.
He high fives one guy, i have no idea who they are and then he walks away, over to me.
Now its time for a good apologize Rachel, and not like: Im sorry, something more creative please.
I close my locker and go to him.
"Hey Mike."i say shy and he looks down on me, smiling a little. Okay he doesnt seem too mad at me for ruining a date.
"Hello Rachel.", he replies and seems to wait for my next sentence.
Well how do i start?
"I-Im sorry for this date yesterday. I didnt mean to look uninterested." Woah. This was the worse excuse i could have chosen but Mike just shrugs his shoulders.
"Its totally fine, i mean i wasnt too nice either. Me just leaving wasnt really gentleman like."
He smirks and makes me smirking too. Suddendly he leans down to me and kisses me.
I stand like an ice sculpture in the hallway while Mike kisses me and my whole body screams NO but sadly Mike doesnt hear that. Its not like it is my first kiss, even though i didnt have a boyfriend before, but Kitty brang me to several parties where some guys just kissed me.
My first kiss was with some fat guy who was sweating all the time, believe me, i dont really wanna talk and think about it anymore.
Mike do is a good kisser but it doesnt turn on the feelings in me i wanted to.
I open my eyes and see Kitty at her locker raising her eyebrowns, smirking. Its an amusing smirk, not like that she finds us cute in any way, she just sees that i feel completely uncomfortable with Mike here. I try to tell her somehow that she should help me but shes way too busy to laugh. Great.
I push him away, harder than i wanted to.
"E-eh ... look Mike you're really nice but um ... this is just kinda too soon ..." , i look down blushing, so i cant see how Mike reacts.
"Uh ... i just thought .. okay i better go now.", then he walks past me.
Gosh. I shake my head and look up again and see KItty walking over to me. She still has that amused smirk on her face.
"You looked really happy!", she says in a high Quinn voice and i just cant hide my smile.
"Can we just forget that that happened?", i ask and look around.
Kitty laughs. "No, actually not."
I sigh and turn around and make my way to my class, being followed by Kitty.
"Why didnt you tell me that you two were on a date? I had to hear it of Quinn!", she says reproachful.
Because you disappointed me?
"The date was awful i dont want to talk about it Kitty. At least not now.", i try to walk faster, i know where this will lead to.
"Why? Okay he doesnt seem to be the best kisser but hes nice! And he likes you! Even if the first date wasnt what you expected go on a second date with him."
"No!", i yell at her and her eyes are wide open. "I can't.", i calm my voice a little bit, but im close to the tears. This would have been the perfect moment to tell KItty about Finn, about my dads, about everything. But i dont, because i still have hope in my dads. Because i dont know what will happen next with Finn. Because he already told me that i shouldnt see him again, but i want to meet him again, at least once more. I need my answers.
Kitty shakes her head. "Rachel what is going on with you these days? Are you okay? Is it because of your dads?", she really seems worried and i would have loved to tell her everything but the only thing i do is running away from her to the restroom, letting the tears stream down my face.
I am so done with everything here, i just want my normal life back.
I wish i would have never went to that damn prison and meet Finn Hudson and letting him control me. I wish my dads would have never argued or they would have at least told me why they did and let me help them.
I lock myself into a cabin , as i hear my phone ring. The display shows an unknown number, which sent me a message. I know who it is.
With fingers which shiver i tap on my display and open the message.

Big girls don't cry.

I shake my head and this time i dont delete it, i answer.
What do i have to do that you leave me alone?
Rachel

No answer.
I bite my lip.
I need to go back there, one last time.